super happy today

Today ss was so boring that i even want to fall asleep then after this was math at computer lab and we have mock test =( once i got the paper my mind went blank. Then after math Michelle , Jabez and me we take bus go bpp but Jabez never go. When we reach and we want to eat cheese fries so we go kfc eat, just eat a little bit anna, kerin, lynn, xw and sj they all come and crowd around our table, anna and xw came inside and the rest was outside then suddenly lynn say hey Mr Goh then i say where?? Then he is just beside us pushing the baby tram then sj and kerin shout out Mr Goh then he turn and saw us so push the tram come here and say eat fast food again. I ask why your child cry he say she want balloon then he say see you all later and he go. Michelle say i want to see how his wife look like then i turn and saw him come back then i ask what is her name he say i know then i say shi ruo he say ya then i call her name but she keep looking at michelle. He tell his daughter that this is jolene jie jie and michelle jie jie they like to eat fast food and i was thinking i where got always eat fast food. Then i ask where your wife he say buying things. When they all come all together Mr Goh and his family stop and i don't know what he say lah then bye and he went home. After we eat we go up escalator, saw michelle friend EUGENE and he is cute =D Then went home after we walk awhile. Take a nap just now untill 6pm like that and when i was sleeping Mr Goh wearing the T-shirt, 3/4 pants, slipper and pushing the baby tram keep coming up to my mind or dreams. I feel so uneasy seeing him wearing T-shirt, 3/4pants and slipper =p

Yesterday was speech day and Mr Goh wear the number 1 uniform so handsome and hot. I was sitting there for 2hour straight without getting up so dam boring lah. When everything ended went canteen and when Mr Goh was going back Michelle was like "COME ALREADY! COME ALREADY!" trying to let me know but actually i was look at him when playing with jess and rose. Then thanks jess mother to sending me home =D

If you give me one chance to tell you how i was feeling

I will tell you straight to you eyes that i remember everything that you did

I just feel happy loving you but i think i should forget you cause when i see

You and you family together i feel that i should not have love you in the 1st place

I got to be strong even i got cry sometimes cause i really miss you

A part of me is dying because of you and i have loss a lot of water from crying.

I THINK I SHOULD LET YOU GO AND I WILL TRY MY BEST TO LET YOU GO................

Sorry for not posting for 2days already cause keep study and study and study.
Today--SS was 1st so dam sian lah listening to songs when he teaching and mgs michelle to ask whats wrong with her. Chinese did test then after test went up 4th floor to lend math textbook. Math did same thing so boring. Geo--the test i got 25/30 yeah then learn boring stuff half way i fall asleep and kerin go throw something and hit untill me so wake me up from my sweet dreams. POA messed up the class again and Ms Tan came in so we clean up. Felt really bad for her and when she came in she didn't even scold the class. I wouldn't do it again =( After Mdm Heng talk was ask to go back class and Ms Soo was crying again and ask what we did then she say who did nothing take your bag and go then everybody go left kerin, lynn, xw and me in the class and she was saying you sure only got the four of you then i reply they coward what do and don't dare to admit then she call whole class to come back in. SAD SAD SAD!!!!

Yesterday--Mr Goh lesson i don't know how to draw the thingy and ask Jabez he say like that draw and i still don't know he go tell Mr Goh that i don't know how to draw so he come and teach me how to draw and i keep drawing the line to long and he say the line cannot come out and i was like oh OK =D The lollipop i still haven eat yet just cant bare to eat it
To Kerin: You are not me you don't understand how i feel.

Every night in my dreams i will see you but cant feel you
Even there is spaces between us but i know that distance does not matter
Once you open the door you can see my love for you is true and nothing can change
Cause you will always be in my heart no matter what happened
I just feel happy loving you and i don't want anything in return
even i get sad and jealously over you sometimes but i still think is Worthy loving you
I kown some of you tell me to let go of him but i just cant and i am happy loving
I AM NOT LETTING GO.......

Today he was like very angry cause we did not sit at the original place. He start the lesson by giving us worksheet and do then he go see my work then ask me why write 3o i say no lah is 50 then he say where got 50 is 40 lah then i ask why?? he tell me and i say ohhhh. keep seeing my paper =) Then he give lollipop to those who get full marks for the 3marks test. I ask him can give me anot then he don't know say what lah. Ask from wei hui and she give me and i say i but you another one tml and then Rachel give me her one oso yeah i got 2 lollipop that is from him and i don't want to eat cause... just cant bare to eat the lollipop=D

I don't feel like letting him go cause i love him

And i don't want anything from him i just want to love him.

Even i get angry, sad and jealously at times, but i still like him.

Maybe this is call LOVE....

I don't know still like him or forget him???

My heart does not want to loss you

And a part of me is going to die because of you

If there is a chance to tell you how i feel i will tell you my feeling about you

I don't mind crying once in a while but i have been crying everyday

There are days that i pretend i am fine but actually my heart is crying like hell

I must say that i have go crazy on you but i don't know why

I know that things are different now

I AM NOT GOING TO LET YOU GO.......

Today when i reach school that time, i stand outside spark room but i din not see untill Mr Goh car then i turn saw his car just right in front of me only and i was so shock want to forget him the 1st day turn out to be i day that i don't wish to forget him. Then must report to control room in the morring then i was looking at the sky and suddenly turn around and saw him walking pass me so i don't want to look so turn to look at the sky and during that time my tears want to burst out already but i just cant cry over there so many people. I want to turn again he walk pass again and is like MUST see untill him one. Some more he do presentation today how you expect me not to look at him???? When he greet the class that time i just don't feel like greeting him so i never greet but don't know how he know i never greet him so i have to stand up and greet him then when i just sit down, he teel me go set up the laptop and i was like wth i just sit down only. Then he say that sat Michelle and me go eat LJS but never see untill him what. Nevermind. After school, went to staff room with jess to find Ms Tan but never find untill her but see untill Mr Goh. I think they go out eat together but don't know go where eat cause i go cafe cartel with jie jie oso never see untill them. Yesterday night i went to sleep around 10+ then wake up around 1++ and jie jie still awake so talk to her while then she want to go sleep a oso but i did not sleep i just cry and i don't know why.
I really have tried my best to forget him but i just cant do it and i don't know why??
WHY WHY WHY??????

I know that there are other fish out in the sea but they are not for me

I know i shouldn't love you but i just cant help it by falling in love with you

I have tried my very best to let go off you but i just cant do it and it is getting hard to be around you

And i don't know how to make this feeling go away and i have oso try to hide my feeling but still no use

It is hard to deal with the pain of lossing you and saying goodbye and is hard for me to smile again

I keep pretend i am ok but in my heart it is breaking everyday and i cant mend it back together

I should have long know that we cant never be together but i just keep wating for you

like a fool. These days are not easy for me to move on like i did last time.

I will say GOODBYE when i think i am ready to let you go

I JUST CANT BARE TO LET YOU GO...

Is it time to say goodbye????

I think i won't be posting untill mid-year end cause i need to buck up on my weak subject that cannot make it one. I don't know whats is wrong with me just don't feel like studying.

I think i should have given up on you long time ago but i really

don't feel like letting you off my stupid mind.

I want to give up because i can feel how sweet is your family when kerin tell me about it

so i am trying to forget the feeling i have for you last time.

I just want to be alone for tonight to cry my heart out

There is a voice inside my head that tells me not to let you go

No matter where i go i still need you to guide me the way but as a teacher now

I won't forget the nice thing you did to me

And i don't know why I must be the one who get hurt every times

I am going to leave and i have to mend my heart back together

I will start a new life ahead of me when i put my heart together soon

I am not good enough to say i love you and we will be better off this way

Why it happened to me?? It is so hard to smile when i see your face

Cause i scared the feeling will come back again

I guess there is this thing that you need to know

I am so lonely but i will soon get use to it

I WILL MISS YOU

But i don't know is it time to say GOODBYE???

I am going to let you off my mind =[[

When back school for math yesterday(sat) then wait for Ruoyi if not we can go bpp with kerin they all then can see untill Mr Goh, his wife and his daughter and i heard from kerin that they each hold one hand of their daughter like so sweet =D
So i am thinking to let go off him and i will try my very best to forget about him =(

I forgot how it ever started and when it started

Cause there are this feeling insidde me that i cant explain

Everybody knows that i a fool that LOVE you like crazy

Even you hurt me so badly last time

If you cant see the tears it does not mean i am not crying

I am just crying in my heart that nobodys knows

I still like you but i hope this feeling will fade away soon

And i will change the feeling to TEACHER and STUDENT

I really don't want to let you go but i have left with no choice

I AM GOING TO LET GO OFF YOU

I SHOULD NOT WAIT ANYMORE CAUSE

I KEEP WAITHING OSO NO USE

I AM NOT READY TO LET YOU OFF MY MIND

AND HEART!!!

Today--went back class late cause got stupid AVA duty and when i step into the class and wei hao was like keep looking at me cause Mr Goh in the class in was like shhhh but he keep saying and want he want to eat sweet so i shout don't eat lah in chinese then Mr Goh turn around and ask what i say then i was like ehhhh nothing and laughing away=D I got say one more time and he ask what again i say nothing and wei hao was like you crazy is it and i say no. Then he want to set up the laptop i set up with our class wire then he want to take his new wire then see got so never open his new one and he ask got the sound wire and i say don't have but i sitll pluck in for him then i go off all the light and he look at me so i on the back light, close the door and all window then kerin was like why so romantic and wei hao say why want to lock Mr Goh inside is it and i say no you all siao huh. I was having fun on Mr Goh lesson today. Then went jess,rose, kan and me we went to farja eat then ah mei call me and tell me that Mr Goh is at cafe cartel so i eat faster abit then when me and kan reach there they go already i quite sad =(

Yesterday--PE did not change and Michelle left her phone under table so ruoyi and me went back with her to take her phone and we were keep saying sotong queen means sotong queen.For the class key Michelle i just put it hanging outside when all of us get inside the class. Michelle didn't know how to lock the door and have to help her she really very sotong =)
Poa, the stupid carrot cake switched off all the fans, and it was really stuffy. When doing the last few Qn i keep closing my eye cause i want to sleep.

Every times i see you i feel like touching your face
I cant believes that you are the one that hurt me so badly and treat me so good
I fall to deep into your heart and i cant get out now
And was lost in you darkness heart with no guide
I want thoses HAPPY memories to keep in my mind and no one will ever change it
What ever things that you hurt me i think you did not means to hurt me so badly
You have causes so much pian in my heart that break them into pieces
I don't want to sit here and stare at you i want to talk to you and hear your voice

I CAN WAIT FOREVER.......

I love the way you make me laugh
I love the way you make me smile
I love the way you make my life worthwhile
I love you when you're angry
I love you when you're sad
I love you when you're glad

When I first met you
I felt like I had known you forever,
Telling you my secrets
You listened to me
And thought I’d never end
Who would have thought?
We would become more than just friends

A boy so caring and gentle
With a heart so true
I know you like no one ever known
And sometimes i wonder
What I’d do if you were gone?
Meeting you has changed my life

And I really love you so,
The feelings I feel for you
I am never letting go
Remember me always
And I will too
Because I will always think of

ME AND YOU!!

Actually was was in a happy mood today cause saw him in the morring 2times. 1st time is when me and jess want to talk to canteen saw him and 2nd time is when i come down from control room there and he saw me to so happy. Then recess time, jess and me we go 4th floor to see kan because he mgs me that Mr Goh is in his class so we go up and i very happy =D But untill POA lesson carrot cake go somewhere and got other teacher come in then Mr Goh walk pass our class to blue block there and wei hui saw him and shout from the inside like so dam loud and she faster run to outside there and i don't know is Kerin tell me so i look and they were like smiling and talking happily to each other. They were at the blue block there so i cant hear what they talking so when she come back, Lynn ask her why go out then she say give homework to Mr Goh and i don't believes her. She make my mood so sad wth lah. Then the whole day i was so sad lah and feel like....... her. I want to hear your voice now.


I have been searching for your face in my dreams but i cant find your face
There was a time i keep dreaming of you and i was so excited to see you in my dreams
You filled my dreams with endless wonders that i wouldn't ask you for anything more
Cause you haven appeared in my dreams and i am happy that you come yo my dreams
Even i am here without you i still dreams of you every seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years
I just cant stop thinking of you and i really miss you a lot =p



I CAN WAIT FOREVER............

Today--went to school as normal wait for Anna and Kerin outside spark room then Anna come and she go find people then me and Kerin went to canteen to sit there and talk then heew shi come and say Mr Ong want to meet us so i go up to control room. After a while he come and say that everyday must report at 7am wth lah i want to quit my stupid cca no use one. Then when dismiss i go down and i want to go back to the hall to find Ruoyi but when i want to go in that time Mr Goh come out talking to 1guy so i just smile at him then he nod his head and i just like ok lah at least he reply by nodding his head. When POA lesson that time, she say hey LOW CLASS people go pull down the screen and i was like WTF cant you pull down yourself??? Thanks JABEZ for say teacher don't call people low class lah =) So i go talk chair to climb and take math file to hit the thing to come down and she say wah upgrade already. I really don't like CARROT CAKE.

Yesterday--When ss that time i saw michelle sleeping so i call ruoyi want to shout at her she say ok so we say 1 2 3 then both shout "MICHELLE" and give her a fright that she like jump up like that and she look at us and keep laughing=) After school me and jess went to bpp KFC and there was 6-8AES girls keep looking at us cause 1 is jess pri school friend. Then jie jie call me but i cant hear her so i go outside call her and those irls thought i call GANGSTER come but after i go in a while Michelle, Xiao Hong, Wei Ping and Jerelyn(she bring along her gangster friend got alot) then those girls was like scard of us lah when i walk past the gold shop they also want to walk but see us then U-turn we just walk like normal they thought we following them so they U-turn again and walk away so funny lah.

When i wake up the 1st thing in the morring i want to see your face
There is only hate, tears, pain, lies and fears here cause you are not in my heart
I want to feel the way i feel when i am with you but the time with you past too fast
You can hurt me in anyway but i still keep quiet and never speak anythings to you
Yesterday was i worst day ever and tomorrow won't be better either i am letting history to repeat
I can wait for ever........

Wake up dam early(7.30am) today cause need to go pray. Actually i cant wake up today cause yesterday i slept around 3am cause want to Party Wrold KTV then jie jie, ash kor kor and his brother 1room then gu ma, auntie lily and me 1room which is bigger then jie jie room haha=)
Then auntie Susan who work(which is quite big shot one) there is so funny lah keep asking me to dance when singing hyper songs. I was force to sing the My Heart Will Go On(the titanic song) when i sing open the door or something like that she go run and open the door very funny=D When at the counter paying money, the big big room suddenly they all shout so auntie Susan go pull me go there and see i was like huh???? Then she say wah got a lot of GUYS want to go in anot i say no thanks then the staff at there was laughing i very pai sei. When go out that time she say i call my driver to drive you home with my 2 door FER-LORRY and i was looking around too see where is the FERRARI cause i thought got real Ferrari there then i finally know what she talking and it was so funny lah=D I want to go again next time this is soo FUN. Enjoy myself yesterday. PO PO get well soon=)

I did enjoy myself yesterday but i don't know why i still cry myself to sleep i really cant control my tears

I want to be honest with you but i don't have the chance
Lying all alone restless unable to forget you and unable to sleep
You are the only one i wish to forget but i cant cause i keep forgive you
Even you broke my heart you are still the one i to LOVE
There are times you hurt me and put tears on my face but i never complain
I don't want to cry anymore but i just cant control my tears

I can wait forever........................

Today wake up, my eye is so swollen. Cause i cry myself to sleep and i feel like crying now oso lah. My tears just roll down like tap water that i cant even control. I make me feel so sad. Sometimes you see i am hyper and happy actually i am not happy at all is it all pretence cause i cant expect me to go school with black face and bad mood so i have to be happy to hide my feeling towards you and my friends oso. Even if i see guys which is cute or good looking, but i think that they are not as good as you(what i say is true) I am really LOST AND CONFUSE =(


Everyone think that that i am a fool
You have broke my heart so many times but i still keep quiet
When i see your face, tears just row down my cheeks
I use to be happy when you are not in my life
But now i am just a hypocrite that can control my tears
I know that we cant be together but........
I guess this is the price i gotta pay
When you ignore me is like a thousand blade cuts rights through me
But i can wait forever for you

Is 1.10am now and i cant get to sleep cause not feeling tire and my eye is still very watery and i don't know what to do want to CRY and SCREAM but i cant feeling sad and lonely but got my APPLE and other soft toys to dry my tears when i cry. I maybe will cry myself to sleep if i really cant get to sleep before 1.30am

GOOD NIGHT TO YOU AND HAVE A SWEET DREAMS!

When i look into your eye
I feel happiness
And you are the one who can guide me towards my goals
I HAVE FALLEN FOR YOU

LOST, SAD AND CONFUSE

Today in the morring,we went back class late cause Mr Quek don't know go where.Then when walk past the SC room i wait for Kakit and Jess over there because see untill Mr Goh so walk with them back to class and kakit say i helpless and jess say you want to see huh i bring you go see then i was like soooooo sick lah!! You want to know what sick is that?? IS LOVE SICK cause Mr Goh saw me and just turn away wth lah.
I really don't know what to do now. LOST AND CONFUSE don't know what wrong with me keep crying now a days.Have quite fun with Michelle,Jess and Xiao Hong but i didn't enjoy to the fullest cause keep think about him(sad)


I am sorry if i did anything wrong to you
I cried when you hurt me but i still keep quiet
I just thought i can get over you but i cant
Even we are far apart i still LOVE you
I miss you so much that when i close my eye
Tears just flow out like tap water
I MISS and LOVE you like crazy
Words just cant say how i feel
I feel down when your LOVE is not here

Today--Mr Goh never come but saw him in school at around 3++ saw him and he wear a polo T-shirt and jeans. Then nothing much happened boring.

Yesterday--Quarrel with NKK and i cry 2time, once the lesson end he come find us and tell me to call my MOTHER, i don't answer back so he say the 2nd time i say back:"I don't have a mother lah" And i cry after that. After awhile, i cool down already, he talk and talk then suddenly call me to call my MOTHER and i say, i already say i no mother what you want me to do. So he ask me call father so i say, call lah i oso never talk to him then he walk half way come back and ask what is the number so i tell him back, i don't have his number cause i never talk to him. He say again go call your MOTHER so i say back:"I already say i no mother if you want me to call my mother you go outside find one i call in front of you". I cried again but this time more wrost then just now so i just walk away and never come back.
English--debate, better than yesterday.
Physics--Did test and after that become hyper because i did the......test =) After his lesson, the Wei hui keep flirting with him and the laugh is like hehe, haha WTF lah. I dam angry and keep quiet the whole A-math lesson cause i very sad =(

Monday--first period was physics and Mr Goh asked people out to the front to see the laser thing so i was with Ruo yi that group. I carry my bag go in front there and see but Li ling, Darren and Rachel was blocking me and Ruo yi view so we never see so Mr Goh say the 2joker there can see anot so we say cannot so he was like telling us to say excuse me. Next group is everybody behind expect Michelle so i go accompany her but the Mr Goh say no need but i still go. POA the carrot cake say i low class again i was F***ING angry lah she high class meh?? If high class the shirt and dress is already like those low class aunties wear one. English have debate i got no chance to argue with Ruoyi. Not fun=(

I think i should not get angry with these thing
I also should not get jealous and forget it
But i cant do it cause it keep coming up to my head and i keep think of it
Sometimes you can just walk pass me without saying any thing
Do you know how i feel when you do that to me
My heart was broke into pieces
I know that we can never be together but i really like you
My heart has alway been so lonely and i miss you alot
I think that i have really fallen for you <3

Yesterday bake cookies unitll late in the night but turn out is nice i like it. I waill bring some to school tml and let then try hope you like it. Watch bloody mary in my laptop and is so dam scary no wonder M18 next time must bring the disc to ruoyi house and watch with her and michelle i bet they will screm like hell!!!!


I can't live without you
Because i love you more and more everyday
I don't catch a breath went i see you
All i ever think is about you
I am always alone here with no one
Wherever you are near or far
I believe that the heart does go on

Today PE 1st lesson just play basketball and nothing much. When going back to class, me and wei hao keep saying HI to each other but i say hi to everyone even Ms Soo and Mr Goh.
PHYSICS--Teach me topic which i understand here and there lah. Next week tuesday got test WTH lah TEST TEST TEST!!! Mr Goh tell me to set up the laptop but i say can i say don't want anot and he say:''of couse you got every right to say no''. But i not so bad lah still help him set up. I was so high today in his lesson. I lock him in the class 2times and i think he is angry with me=(
Change timetable and monday 1st lesson is PHYSICS i comfrim will be noisy. HAHAHA watch out.
SS--just teaching SEQ, ruoyi and me say want to go toliet but we go canteen buy food to eat.
CHEM--teach and teach so boring lah wanted to fall asleep already.

After school went BPP with kan to eat then went back to school agian and saw Mr Goh wearing NS unifrom quite funny and cute. After a while go home and now alone at home got nothing to do and no one to talk to. I HATE WEEKEND!!!!


You never know how i feel
I never cross my mind that i will end up here
I can’t take my eyes off of you
I know you don't feel the same way
Life keep getting in the way
And i know how life is and it cant change overnight
No matter what life is i will still love you
But i got to move on
It is hard for me to watch the love fade away slowly
I want to be with you but i cant
Cause i have to fade the love away

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JABEZ!!!!!
Jabez thanks for the gift that you give us. Today POA lesson i want to slap the stupid carrot cake face lah. She ask me to pull down the sreen but the string is tied up so i use the dustpan to undo it so i can pull down the sreen then she say use dust pan so low class and i was like WTF lah she so good then why she don't want to do herself. Next time i climb on the table and untied see what she say. She really SUCKS like HELL lah ASSHOLE.

Very hyper today in all the lesson but not Chinese and Poa. I really don't want to flunk any subject but i cant keep my mind off things. It has been 1years+++ that i did not talk to my dad i don't know what to do please help me think.


Please show me what love is and be my guiding star
I live beneath the heart
I watch you from the dark
All I want is just one moment to hold you
But it's just not enough to feel your breath on mine
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind
To know that you are really gone to other people heart

HAPPY APRIL FOOL DAY's
Today is a happy and fun april fool day but don have the chance to say this to
MR GOH "hey mr goh you never zip your pants''. But any way, april fool last for two days so if can i go tell this to Mr Goh and see what he will do. haha. Then today when i give Ms Soo the poster, i tell her not to cry but she saw it and cry some more go hit my head very pain =( And during EL lesson, ruoyi suddenly say that she don't like Mr Goh and she just shout say that i LOVE Mr Goh and i was like WTF lah shout so loud for what? Luckily Ms Toh not in class.

Yesterday went to west mall to watch MALL COP with ruoyi and we late of a while but just miss the front part a little bit. Went we went in, saw couples sit do we say next time we bring who and who come then sit at the couples sit. The show is dam funny lah should go and watch. BUS home together and keep talking in the bus. hahaha.


I used to be strong
But since the last time that I saw you
A thousand lies have made me colder
And i am here without you
But you're still on my lonely mind
And in my dreams i see you, i feel you
Promise me that you'll be here forever
I'll give you everything
Cause you my everything
And you all i ever wanted