Today when i reach school that time, i stand outside spark room but i din not see untill Mr Goh car then i turn saw his car just right in front of me only and i was so shock want to forget him the 1st day turn out to be i day that i don't wish to forget him. Then must report to control room in the morring then i was looking at the sky and suddenly turn around and saw him walking pass me so i don't want to look so turn to look at the sky and during that time my tears want to burst out already but i just cant cry over there so many people. I want to turn again he walk pass again and is like MUST see untill him one. Some more he do presentation today how you expect me not to look at him???? When he greet the class that time i just don't feel like greeting him so i never greet but don't know how he know i never greet him so i have to stand up and greet him then when i just sit down, he teel me go set up the laptop and i was like wth i just sit down only. Then he say that sat Michelle and me go eat LJS but never see untill him what. Nevermind. After school, went to staff room with jess to find Ms Tan but never find untill her but see untill Mr Goh. I think they go out eat together but don't know go where eat cause i go cafe cartel with jie jie oso never see untill them. Yesterday night i went to sleep around 10+ then wake up around 1++ and jie jie still awake so talk to her while then she want to go sleep a oso but i did not sleep i just cry and i don't know why.
I really have tried my best to forget him but i just cant do it and i don't know why??
WHY WHY WHY??????

I know that there are other fish out in the sea but they are not for me

I know i shouldn't love you but i just cant help it by falling in love with you

I have tried my very best to let go off you but i just cant do it and it is getting hard to be around you

And i don't know how to make this feeling go away and i have oso try to hide my feeling but still no use

It is hard to deal with the pain of lossing you and saying goodbye and is hard for me to smile again

I keep pretend i am ok but in my heart it is breaking everyday and i cant mend it back together

I should have long know that we cant never be together but i just keep wating for you

like a fool. These days are not easy for me to move on like i did last time.

I will say GOODBYE when i think i am ready to let you go

I JUST CANT BARE TO LET YOU GO...