Today Physics lesson was so funny RIGHT MICHELLE! Mr Goh show us a videos here is the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjOGNVH3D4Y right Michelle :) Just feel happy today don't know why maybe saw you at bpp but luckily i did not eat my subway bread yet ;) if not will be very pai seh one :) Run away for Chinese again :) so fun lah keep running away and the NKK really sucks like hell :/

Yesterday first thing in the morning still in the bus waiting for it to turn and reach the bus stop and i saw a car plate that look familiar and i keep looking and trying to think and when it turn finish, i saw Mr Goh in the car then i remember is his car and is like why i cant remember is it i have forgetten him or what??

Maybe the feeling is back or what

I really don't know maybe

I just don't know how to control my feeling

Or i just don't know who to step back

Is really hard for me to forget you

Yesterday when to DFS with Guma, Auntie Alice, Jie Jie, Kor Kor, Me and Ah Mei :) Go there to shop and Jie Jie brought GUCCI sunglass after so many GUCCI wallet, SAVATORE FERRAGAMO heels and other stuff :) After that cab to VIVO with Guma, Auntie Alice and Ah Mei. Then the love bird when to other place to shop, meet them at VIVO and Kor Kor drive us go to have dinner a Chinese restaurant and we order crab and prawn and Jie Jie was like hey last time you kill their friend alive and now want to eat then and i was noooooo :) Then i wanted to say Ginger the old the better (in chinese) Then say until i don't understand what i saying and even all of them :D And went to Party World KTV there cause Guma friends are at there so we oso go there and i drink beer mixed with red wine :D drink alot but still not drunk :( I want to get drunk. All the grown up when outside to smoke and left the children and me (cause i not children) haha :) in the room which look so empty cause the room is so big and i sing quite a number of songs :D And left at about 3++am. Wake up today head dam pain. YEAH tml school starts :) hehe.
SEE YOU SOON MY "LOVE" haha (Michelle, Ruoyi, Jessabel, Rachel and NEH NEH)

Can tell me where is the rainbow

I want it to return my wish

And let go, said too much

Then those things can't be realised

Perhaps time is a kind of cure

It is also the poison

I am taking right now

Yesterday Ms Soo called my house and i just wake up and brushing my teeth half way and the phone rings and my sister say if for me so i go get the phone (haven brush finish my teeth yet) and she ask my i talk so soft cause not like me and i say just wake up only and she laugh :/ Then ask me Qn and say ok you can go back and sleep. LOL!!!

Did some math today but still got quite a number of Qn haven do yet. And tml going to TOWN yeah finally :D Sooooo long never go already and going shopping :)

I hope the dream does not have to end so fast

Cause i just want to stay in my dreams forever

I also hope that the sadness will slow down with out a sound

Or recall for me all the sadness

I just want happiness

Rot at home the whole but i got cook dinner :) And yesterday night or mid-night bake cake ;) Then it turn out to be nice even when the 1st time that i take out the cake is not cook yet so put back in :P Still got math and english homework haven do yet so sian and don't feel like doing it. Want to watch ICE-AGE 3 :)

Yesterday night i had a dream

Walking at the desert

And i finaly understand

That love exists in the blank space

Haiz still didn't get to eat dinner with Jie Jie again today :( Maybe next week going to have dinner togather :D yeah but cant put to much hope cause later she go will still go out with Ash Kor Kor. Just now when to Zhen Fa live seafood there to eat and the prawn is alive and when i want to take the prawn and put it into the steamboat then it jump out of the pot :/ But i like their chocolate eclair :P Yummy.

I will just have one last cry

And put all the past behind

I am not going to cry again

MUST BE STRONG :)

Did some math in the afternoon until i fed-up :/ I cook dinner again for today :) and tml finally going to have dinner with Jie Jie :D cant wait.

I cant explain this feeling

But i just have to let the feeling go

Even through is hard to do it

Just have to carry on with my life

NOT GOING TO WASTE ANOTHER DAY

Have fun with Ruoyi just now at west mall ;) We meet at 10am at bpp cause watching the 11.10am Drag Me To Hell :) Is super nice, scary but i don't like the ending :( Ruoyi was scared and keep holding on to my arms. haha like to watch this kind of scary show or ghost one with Ruoyi and Michelle cause they will scream haha :D so funny when they scream :) Now i want to watch I Love You Man but is NC16 :( Jie Jie say is funny.

Sometimes the road of our life takes us to

Some where that we don't belong

But it will give us surprise

Jie Jie and I cook Meat-ball Pasta yummy :) We make a super big meat ball for Guma cause left the rest and we lazy to roll into small small so just roll the rest together and make the super big one haha :) Tml going to watch Drag Me To Hell confirm will be dam scary one ;) I want to play sims night life so fun :D Michelle thanks for your listening ear :)

I am not going to care anymore

I will just live my life as normal

Like how i behave in class with Ruoyi during Physics

Carry on :)

Mood is really stress out now and don't know what to do. Not about love or anything is just about me and the bitch. Anyway morning when to Jess house and we chat, play SIMS 3 and we make, Rachel, Me and Jess + another one only me and Jess know ;) From bukit gombak station, walk all the way to bukit batok driving center there and take bus home. Just don't want to go home so early. Then we were having cat fight when talking to Rachel on MSN :) And thanks Michelle for listening to my big big secert and Ruoyi :)

I guess the feeling is not completely fade yet

Maybe i will just like you back but not as deep as last time

Cause i recall that time when you treat me very good and i will never forget that

(MG)

The lonely night up above in the sky is making me feel lonely also

I have try to search for my strength to carry on

Now my every hope have seem to die

All the things that i couldn't see clearly last time

Is now all so clear to me now

Don't know why i wake up so early in the morning. Then was rotting at home the whole day listening to 98.7FM then 5pm watch Ellen DeGeneres so funny the sumo part :) Then leaves the house at 5.15pm like that go BPP find Ruoyi and slack at there until 7pm like that i go Guma work place find her and i waited for her for 30minutes then she come out ;/ When to the coffee house there eat and wait for jie jie and kor kor the coach come back from KL :) Jie Jie ask me if this Yam Sago is hot or cold the i say i don't know and go touch the bottom of the pot and say ouch is hot one :) and my hand was so painful cause the thing is really very hot :( I was so dumb go and touch the pot. But the cakes there are very nice and the lamb chop :P yummy

Now my hearts is fill with a lot of happy dreams

And i want to find a way to make it all come true

But now i have to follow the dreams and make them to become reality

Maybe i will never make the dreams come true

And i will never be how i am all a long

I might not get to be how i am

I just want some one to understand me

That is all i want

Went to Causeway Point just now and eat sake sushi :) Then go courts and i thinking of buying a laptop cause i have aim that HP one so nice :) walk around with Guma here and there i just love going out with her cause i will be crazy after i reach home :D every time like that one hehe. We sit down and drink coffee and they play a very old song, i know a little bit so when reach the part i know i sing to Guma and we were laughing :D but not too loud :)

I have been sleeping late this few days

Cause i just cant get to sleep

When i close my eye the flash back of MG will come back

I don't want this to happened so i sleep very late

So that my mind will be tire that time and i wouldn't think back

Now my heart will take me to where they want to go

MY HEART HAVE A REASON TO LOVE SOMEONE

BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS THE REASON

Wake up quite early today and help jie jie pack her stuff in the bag but she keep asking me if she bring this can or bring that. I oso don't know so i just say erm can anything oso can :) Just hang up the phone with her :D She at KL i at here so sian :( I want to get out of the house don't know when can hang out with them. Some more i want to watch Drag Me To Hell but don't know if they one to watch anot cause is quite scary :P but i like even i know that i will be scare until but i still want to watch :) Don't know why i very emotional these few days :(

Should i smile because you are my friend

Or should i cry because that is all we can be

When i talk to you my heart will skip a beat

Is hard to love some one because you are afraid to lose them

Love is like in a dreamland having all the wonderful stuff

So i hope that my dreams does not have to end

Cause it takes a life time to find some one you love

But it takes a while to fall in love with that person

When to school for English today was quite fun :D Then 8 out of 14 come for today only. Feel so bad for Ms Toh. After that, went BPP with Kerin :) it have been a long time since i hang out with her :) Then we went to all the hand-phone shop to see phone cause Kerin is getting a new phone and i tell her to get Samsung Ultra Touch or Omina ;p After that we brought ice-cream and go to the car park nearby there eat, talk and joke. We go from one car park to another :) Thanks Kerin for making me happy today :D Just now Guma ask me if i want go KL and i say don't know leh. And she say you don't tell me don't know is YES or NO so i say i like want to go leh :P and say hiya never mind lah next time ^_^ And she say i see how lah :) hehe maybe i going don't know leh. Today my day are much better.

I will not let yesterday sadness cast a shadow on today dreams

Every second count cause there will not be a second chance

If today is my last day in earth

I will recall all the good memories, mend my broken heart

And fall in love in my last day

So do whatever you want to do now

Cause you can never rewind the time back

Really not in the mood now :( Just cried cause some thing really bad happened and i don't wish to talk about it. I think i going to find job or some thing but is going to start school soon so if i work maybe school start i oso will work but i don't know if i can cope with it anot. Just now clean baby-boy ear and he bite me and now got the scar left on my hand but i think tml will be ok already :) Tml still have to go for the English in the morning :(

The silence in the room is making me want to scream my heart out

Sometimes i love just slips through us without us knowing

I wish i could tell you how i feel

But i guess i will not have the chance of even guts to tell you

If i really have one wish

I will want the power to change everything in my life

My heart is already broken and my tears are flowing out

I WANT TO SHOUT

Bring baby-boy to the VET just now and he have grow fatter 7.5kg :) The doctor clean his ear and he was making those like funny sound or weird sound :) He got 3 different kinds of medicine and 2 different ear drop :/ i will be the one suffering you know why cause i have to clean his ear, drop the ear drop and feed him medicine :( Just now forcing him to eat his medicine and he bite me when i am trying to clean his ear :(

Walking on the street while the wind blows

It feels like i can hear your voice

Will you know how i feel eventually

You were like a dream to me

Even i don't know what is love

But i know what is fairytale

I am waiting for it to come to an end of all this

And know what is love

I don't even know where am i now

Oh ya change my blog song :) I still like this song even is quite long ago ;) Then was at home the whole days until at night go BPP find Guma to check the blackberry phone and have dinner at there :) Tml still got English :( Then afternoon going to bring baby-boy to the VET. Finally i got plan in the holidays :) and not staying at home the whole day and rot :(

There have been ups and down in my life and i have been wondering why

But some how i still get over it after some time

When ever i read through the black book it remind me of you

I just cant seem to face the truth

Aren't memorise suppose to fade

How i wish i have never like you before so that i don't have to be in these state now

Now i hope to have a wish that is to completely forget all about you

Now i have to follow my heart

And take one step count one step

Bring baby-boy to grooming and he now got no hair or little hair :) He look like a bull dog now :) so small and cuter. The head oso very the small after cut his hair ;) I really don't like holidays got nothing to do one :( But i like to wake up late cause i have more sleep hehe :P

Vague and misty is the dream you give me

My sky be it rain, be it wind or rainbow i can control them all

I hate myself to be really useless

Can love be pure forever without sorrow

Can love be simple without hurt

Or love its hurt every time

Cause i want my love to have no worries

I really don't want to think to much

But after the rain has passed it is even harder to forget you

Wake up very early today cause meeting Jess and Priya :) Then Priya was late and we wanted to eat KFC breakfast but it will only open at 8am so we go eat MAC :) Have fun eating with them cause there will always be alot of laughter going on between us ;) Then Priya spectacles got white white and i ask why white white she say is like a powder and i say don't lie lah is creamer right and her hand or some where also have and Jess say you bath in creamer is it :D Then we all was like laughing non-stop and a bit crazy :)) Then we took the bus. I went home sleep and they went to school for the drama camp :( Evening meet Guma at BPP there eat dinner Japanese food!!! yummy :) Then Jie Jie oso go eat Japanese food but is at other place :( Tml bring baby-boy to grooming ;)

I have been very swayed by my emotions these days

Being together is called dreams

But being apart is called pain

So the dreams that are unfinished is the most painful one

Cause i only have the memories of that one day

If i can stop the time i wish it will stop at the very moment of my life

But the ice-cold nights make me feel so helpless

Starring blankly at the sky looking at the stars

And making a quiet wish that hope to come true

Why cant a heart clears away bad memories

Why must in be in our heart and mind forever

People can forgive what you did to them

But they will never forget

SADNESS DOESN'T GO AWAY....

Got so many homework lah don't know what the teachers are thinking. Suppose holidays is to let us enjoy ourself and have some fun one but they give us soooo many homework to do like WTH!! Just now did some A-math until i don't want to do and skip alot of Qn. And i not in a good mood oso. I don't want to stay at home. Tml morning meeting Jess lover and Priya at BPP for breakfast after that they will be going to drama camp :( cant chat on the phone with Jess for 2days. Then Rachel oso got camp, Ruoyi is family day and Michelle will oso go out with family or friends one. Then i stay at home with my dog :P But at least i got my baby-boy to keep me accompany ;)

I have been trying very hard to hold my feeling very far away

Somethings is whirling in my mind tell me to make the first move

I want to go back to the start where we first chat

Like very close friend and i think is quite sweet

And i still don't understand the difference between love and like

Maybe love is just another end of a dream

The loneliness of the night easily makes me sad

I don't dare to think too much cause i am not sure about the feeling

But every time we chat it make me feel happy and keep smiling non-stop

Even is for a while only, even i few words or even one second

I want to cry to let out all my sadness

But i want to be strong and not let out any tears

Cause i will feel useless and helpless when crying

Things does not happened the way i wanted it to happened

The darker the night the more scared i am

Feel like drinking tonight and make myself drunk

So i will have no worries just happiness for a while

SADNESS :((

ASSHOLE!!!! I DON'T KNOW WHY I HAVE THIS KIND OF FATHER!!!!! HE SUCKS LIKE HELL!!!!! I DON'T LIKE HIM. HOW I WISH I DON'T HAVE A FATHER LIKE HIM!!!!!!!!!! F*** HIM LAH!!!

Hey sorry for starting my post like this cause i really cannot take it anymore. Also cannot say all this in front of him. Slack with jie jie at home just now and she make me listen to Jay Chou the Zui Chang De Dian Ying (the longest movie) and Bai Se Feng Che (White Windmill). Then now i fall in love with it already cause i see the MV is very sweet and i like the longest movie best. Accompany her walk to WVPS there. How i wish i can be like Jie Jie go out until very late then come home so i don't need to see until him!!! Even i can get out of the house for a while i also want cause i really don't like to stay at home.

The wind have been blowing towards me quietly

When i feel the wind

I just have the feeling that i am in dreamland

But when i look up on the sky

I feel like dying

I hate it when people don't understand me

I need a new life to change my old memories

Or never wake up from my sleep

I told myself to forget about you

When i want to say goodbye to you

The words just cant come out

And now i don't want to believes in love anymore

Cause i scared it will hurt me again

But if i truly believe my Mr Right is here

I will then believes i love again

I WILL STOP THINKING OF YOU...

I guess

Went school with Ruoyi today. I was waiting for bus at the bus-stop and she say want to take bus so i wait for her until she board the bus. English i was so bored cause no one was high-ing with me :( After English, went outside staff room find Ruoyi as she was waiting for the Mr Goh that you must wait for him dam long then he will come out. Ruoyi and i think that he got save her number cause the last time that she use my phone call him and he ask you use who phone and she go say my phone. Then me , Ruoyi and Simin went BPP to eat MAC hotcakes. yummy :P I went home 1st cause need to do something. When i am done doing my things, i went back sleep until 1plus or 2 like that wake up cause Rachel called me and we talk about something. Around 4plus i accompany jie jie to bus-stop and wait for 975 to go kor kor camp. Then i go BPP find Ruoyi and we chit chat :) I really like talking to her don't know why. Sian tml got nothing to do so maybe will start my homework but 1st must get foolscap paper if not cannot do.

I have think for a very long time if i have truly forgotten about you

I know that you will cant be my prince

Nobody understands me even you

Now i am left alone at home with your shadows

I know that in my life i will not have him

But i still act like a fool waiting for you

But now i come to my sense to forget you

But sometimes without you i feel very empty

Watching the sky and trying to think hard

I really want to be drenched so i can forget everything

I never thought that can be quite strong now for the time begin

I am waiting for the day to come when i can clears up all memories of you

Maybe it will be better for me...

Went back school today for English and thanks Kerin for high-ing with me :) It starts at 8am and i wanted to wake up at 7am but i was too tire and drag the time until 7.15am then wake up ;) Me and Kerin was not suppose to go for Physics but we still went and my brain is very rusty cant think. Then was sitting behind with Ruoyi as Kerin was sitting with Lynn :( When i 1st saw him just now, the feeling is not back or maybe just today the feeling is not back? I really don't know like still got a little feeling like that. Maybe i have to take one step and count one step.

I am trying to figure out what is life

I want to go some where i can be alone

I cant think but only make a mess out of it

Why must everything be so mess in my life and confusing

Maybe i am just thinking too much or is real

I just now was staring at the moon and think for a very long time

And i decided i am nothing to care anymore

Now i just want to scream and shot as loud as i want

To forget everything in my life and go to a place where i knew no one

What have done cannot be undone

Only crying out and shouting can make me feel better

TAKING ONE STEP AND

COUNTING ONE STEP....

So went to bugis and sit there for like 5 to 6 hours for the SIMS-3. They say starts at 2pm but bring forward to 1pm like that and I help a guy to take his SIMS cause he helping his friend take oso but they want the T-shirt but 1 people 1 T-shirt. Then went to see them play games and we watch the movie at 3.20pm and the shopping mall is like so new :) Then went to Guma workplace to wait for he and we go BPP to have dinner together. SIAN tml morning got English but only a few of us and nobody will get high with me :(

I am not going to waste another day

Cause i want to forget you as soon as possible and carry on with my life

All the things that you done to me i cant forget but they just kept inside of me

When i know you that time i should have just treat

You as a normal teacher and all you do is teach teach teach

But i never i just keep waiting for you like a fool

Even my friends say that we cant be possible

But i still stood there waiting for you like a idiots

I am sick of crying and feeling down for you

And i have been drowning in my tears just for you

Is time to say goodbye

(MG)

I have been thinking very hard these few days

If i have really forgotten about MG

But i am real scared that when i see him

The feeling will come back again

So i really don't know what should i do man

IS TIME TO SAY GOODBYE...

I want to turn off all the lights around me

So in the dark i can cry when no one is looking

Tonight i will not be crying to sleep but will be smiling to sleep

I am unwilling to delete all the mgs that you send me

Love can come so suddenly without us knowing

My world is so lonely without you

What should i do now cause i have forgot about you

And my hearts still hurt painfully

Tell me is it a bad thing or a good thing to forget you

Maybe forget you is a good thing cause i will carry on with my life and live more happily

But i haven completely forget about you

What if i see you and the feeling will come back again and it will hurts

I AM NOT GOING TO TURN BACK....

(I GUESS)

Wah today was such a hot day lah so dam F***ing hot. When i was still sleeping in the morning Jess phone call wake me up from my dream and i cant get back into the dream cause Ruoyi mgs. But i still mange to get back to sleep :) Afternoon when out with Jie Jie(cousin) to get her pay and do the sing-pass or what :) Done already when BPP, we chat for very long and i also forget when is the last time i chat with her so much ;D and we were laughing here and there ^_^ After chating, we go and buy ear-ring got 3pairs so I take one pair, Jie Jie take another pair and the last pair her boyfriend (Ash Kor Kor) take ;) After Jie Jie go find Kor Kor at his camp, i meet Ruoyi at bpp and we walk walk talk talk ;) Went home around 7+pm still early :( SIAN don't like to stay at home got nothing to do one. Then talk with Jess on the phone and now on MSN ;D Going to get up dam early for the SIMS-3 cause Jess say so (but the thing start at 2pm) and meet her 7am at BPP bus-stop and take bus go. I want to buy quite a number of things like, Watch and Slipper( havinas) but i am broke cause holiday no pocket money :( I also want go KTV cause long time never go already ;)

I have not forget the good and bad memories that you pass me

And you really hurt me a lot that i cant take it

I will use my tears to mend my broken heart

To remove the pain that you hurt me

Everything that i do in your class is to get your attention

Maybe my heart and love will hurt less if i forget you long time ago

I guess it shouldn't be hard to forget you

Even if i cry my heart out you will not know

I guess i am going to erase all memories that i have on you

Cause i am getting sick of this and trying to give up

But i will remember deep in my heart so i will never forget

The feeling have get deeper this few days

(MG)

Suddenly i have this weird feeling about you

I guess i have to make the move when talking to you

Cause time will not wait for me or you

And no matter how i think about you

I just cant picture your face

(HIM)

Right now i want to enter a peaceful sleep forever

Once i wake up i hope to forget everthing even your shadow