So Close, YET, So Far

2010-10-11T16:45:00.002+08:00

YES, "N"level is finally over!!! Now my life is back :D ahahaha I cant wait for my holidays to come, it will be soooooooo FUN!!!!! :D

2010-09-07T17:54:00.002+08:00

This MsChai gave Wong Ping Ping the tissue. haha!
And she call me to post it up. My job is done here, so BYEE!
Ruoyi(:

Tan Ruoyi Rock :DD

2010-08-06T20:42:00.002+08:00

RAWYI here(:
Jolene wants me to update for her.
1st, We are all very very busy and tired out by school these days especially with night study.
2nd, Jolene wong's Computer is spoil, cannot use to update.
3rd, She have been saying and saying and saying "I HAVE A LOLLIPOP TODAY"
this girl so irritating.
Okay I stop here, I happy then help her update again :D
I want end with "Tan Ruoyi Rock!" :DD

2010-07-08T16:58:00.004+08:00

I dont know what is wrong with you all. The more i give in, the more you all take it for granted.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!! You think i very easy to let you alll take for granted!!! NO WAY, NO MORE giving in!!!! Fucker. Stop giving that COCK FACE lah. Raw and Me already dont want to make the guys stand in the middle but you all are making it worst!!! I did cry, not because of what, is because YOU ALL ARE TOO MUCH!!!! I have my PATIENCE too!!! and you all exceed already!!! I will brust one day!!!!

Anyway, i made a NEW friend not lah, not really new is i patch back with her already :) so we are friend now :D so happy. And sorry for those hurtful things i say to you.

2010-06-21T21:19:00.007+08:00

Okay, plan to study and do homework with the 2 retard which is Tan Ruoyi and Jocelyn Sua!!! But end up didnt do much as thinking what to do on our birthday :) Then that sua brought a ducky, very cute :D

Ohya, if you didnt know, i pierce, my ear :)

Is painful at 1st but now, is okay already.

REALLY THANKS TO JIE JIE!!!!!
I LOVE YOU FOUR!!!!!!!! ahahaha :)

2010-06-18T19:20:00.003+08:00

So many things undone and so little time left :(
Hope next week will have time to bake and RAW house and Thursday go sentosa for picnic :) hop all will go in plan. I dont like sia, dont they have ORIGINALITY!!!!! >:(
fuck off lah, asshole!!!

2010-06-06T21:40:00.005+08:00

Should i un-Private my blog?
My ear hurt :( But is nice, i like. Thanks Jie Jie for paying, very expensive u know, $77++
LOVES HER LOTS!!!! :)

2010-05-31T15:48:00.003+08:00

My blog is soooooo dead :/ Update abit 1st if not that Tan Rawyi down there nag and nag.
June will be a busy month, so many things coming up and need to spend money. No money no talk :( sian, where can i find money!!!! Oh ya, i cant wait for the shopping trip with raw, sua and others, and this FRIDAY!!!! But must go dig money 1st. :(

2010-05-14T18:44:00.006+08:00

I dont know why when u tell me all the course in ITE and need what and what then can get in, i feel like crying. U know where is ur ability, i cant force u but i want what is best for u. and dont want u to regret it. do u get what i mean? I dont want u to end up like ...... u know??? I think u are just upset with ur mid-year result that why u will go ITE website to see their course and criteria I know u can do it, everyone know u can do it why dont u give yourself one more chance to prove it and that is prelims!!! :( I am not angry, i am just disappointed :(

2010-05-05T16:00:00.003+08:00

I did mgs you SORRY but like no use leh :( Must really say sorry in public?? Walao, he come our class to invigilate A-Math i sian diao already. Then 15min later, he go out and Mr Seah took over i song le yi kuo qi but ending, he came back and collect paper :( Ms Chai give me and Ruoyi a stitch :) Ruoyi one is Pink colour call LOVE :) Mine is Yellow colour call Lucky :) Just now i tell Ms Chai call him come out as i wanted to say sorry but too bad he not inside.
I think i tmr go find him suan le and say SORRY in public :(
HAIZ :(

2010-04-29T18:04:00.012+08:00

Ytd, That Mr Goh go take my Fat Poke :( then i bug him all the way until 4+pm then me and Ruoyi go bpp find Jess, Farhin, Vijaya and Aisyah at Pizza hut as jess say early celebration for her birthday. Then we brought a small cake for her, this is only starting :) whahahaha. Ms Chai mms me fat poke with 2 other soft toy and say he dont miss me :( Mr Ong know who to pei her Mr Goh to disturb me still say want to catch mouse for me with needles. GRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! At night, i hug teddy and cry :( I think quite stupid to cry over Fat Poke :) Oh ya, Ms Soo take picture with my fat poke!!!

Today, morning i called Mr Goh and ask him return my Fat Poke.
ME: I want back my Fat Poke
MG: I just finish my breakfast with him
ME: I want him back
MG:You wait arh, i ask fat poke talk to you
ME:I ytd night cry, i want him back
MG: Wait for me
He come out with out my fat poke, make me happy for nothing :( I emo all the way until end of paper1. Before i go back to class, i say Ms Soo mgs me go staffroom take fat poke but want start paper already. damn it :( 12.45pm like that, Mr Goh mgs me say :"Meet me outside staffroom with ruoyi at 1pm if u want ur fat poke back". sound like he is threatening me. Then he 1.20pm like that then he came as he got what meeting with victor lee. Then he at 1st say want give me back my fat poke now but tmr morning must give him our phone. I was smiling and say okay cause can take back fat poke :) Then he change his mind and say, tmr you give me your phone then i give you back your fat poke i was like i dont want then he walk off and my tears drop so i walk to toilet to wash my face. Then they were like calling Mr Goh from outside the door as Ms Soo and Mr Goh sit quite near the door. Then Mr Goh came out with fat poke and I dont like weihui tell Mr Goh to say sorry as it is part of my fault to what, i dont expect him to say sorry to me cause I JUST WANT BACK MY FAT POKE :) Ms Soo came out and was finding for me and then they say i go home already and Ms Soo was like, where got so fast one? Then Weihui look at the place where i am hiding then Ms Soo look and say, you so fast smile already huh? ahahaha. Then, Ms Soo, Mr Goh and Mr Lee going meeting or what, i saw them at car park and i shouted "I DONT LIKE MR GOH"!!!!! Then they all turn and look then that GOH dont know say what to Ms Soo. I tmr morning go find him and pass him my phone and say, next time pls learn how to TRUST us!!! I think today english paper was quite do-able :) I WANT TO PLAY SUA DS!!!!! she say will lend me this weeken :) ahahaha
Mood today is kinda swing today :/

2010-04-26T18:37:00.003+08:00

OMG, I cant believe that just now that Mr Goh Wei Beng thought that i EMO. ahahaha, dumb ass :P Help SUA flag cab just now, stanch with the 3E ahaha :) And i was high after that :) went bangkit with ruoyi and i brought fried ice-cream, not rreally that nice lah. got alot of homework today, tmr still got bloody PHYSICS mock test, want my life man!!!! Grrrrr >:( Okay, going to do homework le, if not never reach 12am wouldnt sleep :(

2010-04-23T17:41:00.003+08:00

This is a meaningful story :)

Tittle: Is your jar full?

A Professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in frontof him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large andempty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He thenasked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

So the Professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into thejar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areasbetween the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar wasfull. They agreed it was.

The Professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Ofcourse, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jarwas full. The students responded with an unanimous "Yes."

The Professor then produced two cans of beer from under the table andpoured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the emptyspace between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the Professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you torecognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - your family, your children, yourhealth, your friends, your favorite passions - things that if everythingelse was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house,your car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff."

"If you put the sand into the jar first", he continued, "there is no roomfor the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend allyour time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for thethings that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that arecritical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to getmedical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. Therewill always be time to clean the house, and fix the disposal. Take care ofthe golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities.The rest is just sand.

"When he had finished, there was a profound silence. Then one of thestudents raised her hand and with a puzzled expression, inquired what thebeer represented.

The Professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that nomatter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of beers.

"Lesson: When things in your life seem almost to much to handle, when 24 hours in aday are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar......and the beer.

2010-04-23T17:09:00.005+08:00

shall update. Ytd i suddenly went emo, dont feel like talking to anyone :( Sorry guys for ignoring you all (Ruoyi, Inez and Jess) and Ms Chai :) SORRY!!!! :)

My brain is going to burst soon!!!!

Today-- TC was alright, math alright too then next Chinese, went to toilet and bring along my fat poke because give they all molest until like what. Saw that Mr Goh went going back to class i use fat poke to make him and he try to take but FAILED. He U-turn and say lent me, i want show to the 3E and i very reluctant to give him but he say will return so i trusted him, but less then 5sec i want it back. ahaha, go ask back from him and he THROW back to me, nearly touch onto the floor but i am a good catcher so never drop on to the floor :) :) Thanks Ruoyi, Inez and Simin for the accompany to as far as farja oso mean some thing to me :D I want to stop all the nonsense right now!!!! MYE coming and i dont want it to effect my mood everyday!!!! So pissed today!!! Grrrrr!!! cant they just wait for bloody god damn while? I want to hit something right now!!!! Thanks Ruoyi, Michelle and Rashid for hearing me naim naim and naim :)

2010-04-16T17:19:00.003+08:00

I WANT TO EAT HASH BROWN!! bUT RUOYI THEY ALL DONT WANT LET ME EAT :( I sick already still can get suan by that MR GOH WEI BENG!!!!= Go away BENG!! ahaha, sec1 teach one, dont play play hor. ahaha

2010-04-14T18:29:00.002+08:00

Ruoyi help me blog and i just notice ahahaha :D Thank you TAN RUOYI!!!! :)
I Really dont like weihui!! :/ Me and Ruoyi earn the lollipop and chip chip but NOT HER!!!! NOT HER!!!!
Sickening!!!!!!!!

2010-04-13T21:51:00.002+08:00

Tan Ruoyi Here! I shall help Jolene Wong Update abit :D
Today, got a lollipop and a new chip chip.
I shall say out everything, she is bugging about today.
1. I don't like WeiHui, Why she clip chip chip at her pocket also?!
2. I don't like Ruth!
3. I don't like MrGoh! He very irritating.
Oh Yah, Jolene Wong will be proud to say, her handphone is still with her!
7/10 for physics test (:
Stop here bah, I also want go study before this girl niam me. xD
JIAYOU JOLENE WONG (:

2010-03-21T00:15:00.004+08:00

I saw this very cool phone but there is only 100 in singapore and is for porsche car owner to buy only :( but anyway is damn expensive (approx. $774), so can forget about it :(

The P'9522 is designed around a straightforward "candy-bar" form factor, milled from a solid block of aluminum with a scratch-resistant touchscreen glass display. Avoiding getting your fingerprints all over this slick piece of tech would be an exercise in futility, so Porsche Design has incorporated a fingerprint reader to keep unwelcome users out. The P'9522 is equipped with a stills and video camera with auto focus. The camera has a resolution of five megapixels, integrated flash and digital zoom. The P'9522 is equipped with an MP3 player for music, ring tones and voice reproduction in stereo quality. The P'9522 also features a five-megapixel camera with flash, GPS module, stereo MP3 player, WiFi and quad-band antennas for use around the world (except Japan and Korea).

The coolest part is that it is Finger print sensor that access to personal data is secured by means of a sensor which identifies the user's finger print.

Check the website :D

http://www.mobileporschedesign.com/P9522/index.html

http://www.autoblog.com/2009/02/18/smooth-operator-porsche-design-releases-new-p9522-phone/

2010-03-20T12:53:00.003+08:00

Woah, i wake up damn early today :/ Going out later as i am all alone at home now :(
Sian, i am left with eng and POA homework to finishe up before school start but i dont know how to do that POA paper :/ hate it when i dont know how to do. This few days is so cold!!

2010-03-19T17:46:00.003+08:00

I dont know want to pierced ears my ear anot. Hmm....... still thinking. Should I or should i not?
Haiz :( I want to watch How To Train Your Dragon in 3D!! My post is getting shorter and shorter cause dont know what to write. School gonna start soon sian cannot sleep until late in the afternoon :(

2010-03-14T22:50:00.003+08:00

Satt went back school do math :/ after that, went bpp with Ruoyi and Lynn for lunch. We chatted alot and then accompany lynn wait for cab then me and Ruoyi went home. Went out for dinner with Guma, Jie, Kor and Ah Mei. So funny as i keep disturding them ahahaha. I finish watching Percy Jackson so damn nice lah and that guy kinda look like Zac Efron :D hot hot hot.

2010-03-10T18:15:00.006+08:00

Okay, my blog is like super super dead!! You know what, That GOH go and tell 4E3 that i scare of lizard and now sure alot of people know one lorh. >:( grrrr!!
This Friday PTM :(
nothing else to blog. so bored. Haiz :(

黑色笑靨掉了　
雪白眼淚掉了　
該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了
瞳孔沒有顏色　
結了冰的長河　
回憶是最可怕的敵人

2010-02-19T19:07:00.003+08:00

Is like almost a month since i blog. CNY haven over yet so still can go take more ang pao :D CT1 coming soon and i haven even started studying :/ and thanks Michelle for the heart shape chocolate that you give for valentine's day. Is nice :D and Lynn for the small little goodies bag :) if got time, i will post the picture ahahaha.

Just finish watching Hachiko and my eye when teary :( so sad and touching. Tmr going to find Jie Jie and Kor Kor :)

A hand cannot be held yet is closer then family
When there is no more what if
Only the tenderness lost is the most tenderness
When all the beautiful dreams fall apart
I will be all alone and sad :(

2010-01-22T18:26:00.003+08:00

Today was quite a funny day as RASHID and JABEZ was singing spider-man song which go like this during POA,

spider-man spider-man
I can see you underwear
Not too big not too small.
something like that and i was laughing all the way man!! After class, accompany Jess go to 4 floor but i was standing at the staircase there calling Kanneth asking where are he then the GOH came down and say......

GOH:"Don't need to call me, i am here already"
ME:"HUH"?
GOH:"Keep your phone"!
ME:"WHY!!! After school already what." (tell Kan, i call you back)
GOH:"Don't have to action your new phone"
ME:"?????"
GOH:"If later drop, will cry until the whole world know"
ME:"where got, is my MP3"
GOH, smiling.
ME:"later i go scratch your car"
GOH:"You all be my witness if my car got anything wrong" (pointing at Jess and Lynn)
ME:"never mind, i go burn you car then you know"
GOH keep smiling away, stupid lah him.

Lucky R not there if not sure flirt with him one. Has not been talking to her!!!!

After that, go BPP with Jess, Lynn and Kan but lynn cab home after she reach BPP, lazy she :)

2010-01-21T20:17:00.006+08:00

Have you ever feel like dying?
Have you ever feel like giving up half way?
Have you ever feel like crying for someone that is not worthy?
Have you ever have to fake a smile infront of everyone?
Have you ever try holding back your tears?
Have you ever feel like shouting out all your unhappiness?
Have you ever trying to be happy on the outside but drowning you sorrow inside?
Have you ever feel like slapping someone that you HATE alot?
Have you ever feel like you don't belong to this world?
Have you ever feel like you have always be very lonely?

I have feel all this before and i don't like it. I want to be who i use to be!!!
So HAPPY all the time, making my friend laugh when they are feeling down but now, i don't want to be making myself HAPPY when i am feeling down but to be HAPPY everytime.

2010-01-20T21:10:00.003+08:00

Back posting as i am bored :/ I will say about today.........

Physics lesson, i nearly fall down because of the STUPID GOH!!! Before lesson, R was standing behind GOH and say "Mr Goh, you are so tall" in the fucking act cute voice!! Nevermind, when he is teaching, R(shall not mention name) is like flirting with him man. I got angry, so mgs Michelle and Lynn that i don't like her!! They call me go SLAP her :D i thinking of doing this. Help GOH keep the laptop, R was Mr Goh, you not taking the workbook or something like that by then, my face turn BLACK already and he was asking if i am okay i just shake my head. After pack, when to sit beside Michelle and don't know why i started crying :'( And I ask GOH if i can go to the toliet but he no reply so i shout louder and he say go >:( Kerin ask me something, i say "I am not as strong as what you all think"! Then i went to the toliet. Chinese lesson, i ask the teacher if i can go to the toliet as i know my tears is going to drop. But she don't let and the tears just fell down. AHHHH!!!! Amath that time oso, when to toliet alone and......... After Amath, got physics test, Ruoyi ask, you seem happy after Amath. I say is on the outside. Then after the funny test because michelle was very fuuny during the test, i think i was the 2nd last to hand up and WH use his PE shirt to hit me i shouted, C- Pain lah(i wanted to say CB) then WC huh, C pain. GOH say, i hope my daughter next time grow up will not become like me!! But i rather her daughter become like me the that R who is so eeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! :D ahaha

I didn't know that this post is so long man!! So long SUCKER R

Going to end NOW!!

2010-01-20T19:00:00.004+08:00

So many things have happened and i don't know where to start. And i don't want to talk about it.
CRIED today :'(

I really have enough of all. How i wish i can stop all this. But i cant i just cant :(

If i really cant take it anymore of your shit voice, act cute voice and you keep flirting around, i will sure SLAP your FUCKING face man!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Enough is enough!! I really have ENOUGH as i have a limit to my patient

2010-01-01T03:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

So fast another year has gone by :) This year Sec 4 already, cannot play play :(

But my this year new year resolution is,

Study Hard don't always fool around
Always be there for my friends when they need me
Must DO homework

And LAST but not LEAST

BE MORE DEMURE!!!!

2009-12-15T23:16:00.003+08:00

I am quite busy these few days/week. Tmr, going Jess house, Sat 19th Dec Jie Jie birthday party at Guma work place is going to be fun cause after that, going KTV :) Still cant decide what to give her?? Next next Monday (21st) , Ah mei birthday, then Wed (23) Jie Jie actual birthday. Christmas eve, going KTV again and exchange present with Guma friends and children :) I am still enjoying, never even do my homework :/ But Who's care cause very time do already no one will collect. But will try to do some when i am free in the afternoon.

2009-11-29T03:22:00.004+08:00

My blog is like so DEAD!!! It have been months since i post :) 1st, i am lazy to post and 2nd got nothing to post about :/

NOW i am going to say about the CLASS CHALET. listen/read carefully :)

I really did enjoy the chalet and some of us did to (Ruoyi, Fain, Weihui, etc). I cycled alot until my butt pain. Maybe is the bike seat very hard so make my butt pain :/ Swim with the guys and gals, have alot of fun in the pool. After bath, went cycling with Darren and Wei Hao, saw Ruoyi and Weihui half way so we go cycle together :) Brought Subway oven roasted chicken breast yummy :D Reach back the chalet, Darren, Wei Hao and Me go play pool at the lobby $2 so cheap. We have alot of fun then suddenly, WH tell me that she kena chase out of the house ask me if she can come here anot. When he tell me that time, his eye is filled with water like want to cry out like that. So i say huh, okay lorh. Before you come, we all are having great fun but after you come, it change our mood :/

Ms Soo is the only teachers that come and even brought us four leaf cakes. Soo sweet :D

3+am, went cycling with Anna, Ruoyi, Jabez and weihui. We cycle to the Wu Zao Pai crab restaurant and there is a bridge there and the sea is high tide until cannot high so i fast rush to the other side. So scary, we stay there for a while, the faster go back to the chalet that all of us feel safe :) Slack at the room for a while and at 5+am, Anna, ZhengZhong, Ruoyi, XiaoWei, kerin, WeiHui, WeiChung and Me go watch Sun Rise. Sit at the BBQ pit there and talk. The sun rise not very nice :( after that, go back chalet and pack our stuff, return bike, went swimming.

Check out the chalet and all go different way. So we took a cab home. Went to Ruoyi house and slacked. Guess who we call, MS SOO!! and keep telling her about that BITCH and WH!!

Pls, you eat, drink, sleep the bed and use the bike got ask us anot??? So what if your BF is our class one? So what if he pay $20. Of course he can sleep on the bed cause he got pay. But you sleep on the floor ______ .
Now me and your BF quarrel you happy right, ALL BECAUSE OF YOU!!! BITCH. And WH, you think plan a chalet cum BBQ is very easy is it, if you think so, you plan give me see. You sure that NO one enjoy the chalet? You sure the chalet is like CRAP?? I guess you are the only one that never ENJOY the chalet cause your STUPID, BITCHY and UGLY with bugs bunny tooth GF come and change everyone mood!! If you want to break this friendship because of your GF, SO BE IT!! Friendship last forever, are you so sure that she will be your WIFE are you sure you will last long with her?? now only 15 going 16 you sure she is the one?? YOU ARE GOING TO REGRET ONE DAY!!!

2009-11-06T21:14:00.003+08:00

I AM BACK EVERY ONE :D

Got miss me anot?? Ahaha :) When i got there (genting) , i already got flu :( But the room was big :) love it! I 1st time sit roller coaster in the outdoor theme park, 2 different rides some more. Kor Kor win 2 big toy for me and Jie Jie when he shooting the star (marksman) wanted to use the last shot to wain for ah mei, but nver shot until, but is beside only :( Cant wait to go again :) I every year go, but i still think is fun ^__^ Next time go with friend and it will be more fun :)

2009-10-28T17:30:00.002+08:00

OMG, it has bee quite a while since i post :) kinda lazy to post.
The beauty course was so fun but my face :( put so many make up for today and yesterday.
But was fun and i look so girly :/ did my hair today oso for presentation is SUPER NICE will update the pictures when i am not so lazy :) Going oversea soon. So happy cant wait :D

Tmr will go to Yuki Yaki with Jess and hope she don't give me aeroplane already :(

Can you show me that wonders can be true

Even it does not last long

But i will always be there

2009-10-19T15:27:00.007+08:00

Went to Pariss at Marina Square with Guma, Jie Jie and Kor Kor :D the food at there not bad and i think is worth it cause they got Fresh Oyster, Crayfish and many many more :) Jie Jie and Kor Kor buy for me a big balloon, note book, file and cute cute desserts erases :)
After dinner we wanted to go watch movie but hor the NC16 one, Jie and Kor watch already then want to watch HALLOWEEN2 but is M18 i cannot go in :( NC16 still can but M18 hiaz :( So we go KTV :)

This is the Ice-Cream and Crape inside the box
This is the Strawberry pie and a cup cakes :)

Feel like eating it

My BALLOON :)

babyboy want it :(

The file, note book and the desserts erases

My Happy birthday tag in the cake from the whole class :)

I ENJOY THIS YEAR BIRTHDAY :)

Will post a few more pictures tmr

2009-10-17T16:10:00.002+08:00

IS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY :D

Update more when i am back................. :)

2009-10-16T18:09:00.003+08:00

Went out today with Jess, Rachel and Kakit the only guy, pity him. But he got Rachel so.....
Watch 500 Days of Summer so boring, watch untill i feel like sleeping. I want to watch Cloudy With A Chance Of MeatBalls :D After that, we go and eat UNDDER ice-cream. I don't really like it :/

2009-10-15T17:43:00.006+08:00

I really have enjoy my advance birthday in the class today after the scolding from the stupid HOD. I thought today will be a boring day cause only go BPP with Jess but i didn't know my classmate are super great that make my day a wonderful and a surprise one :)

When they came it with the cake, i was shock and eye were wet but the spray the string at me some more alot but fun :) Went to the wash room and wash it off but came back. Kerin say:"your spec dirty, i go help you wash" and she like that take out so i was no lah, don have dirty so i ask her they still want to play huh? She say ya. So i want to take out my spec but Wei Hao take a cake and smiling at me so i smile back but didn't know he will put the face on my face but i bend down so kena on my left side and my hair!!! I go wash room wash my hair and don't want to go inside class so was outside the window to check that they will not play anymore but who knows, Kakit, Wei Hao, Darren and Shaamiym came into the girl tolites to put the cakes on my face but is still fun :) But hor, the sec1 will think i siao, face, hair and spec all wet. Stupid Wei Hao and Darren keep hitting me!! SUPER PAIN!!

Still got 5-6 slices of cakes left so i give to Ms Tan, Ms Soo, Ms Toh and Mr Goh(the most demanding one!!) Give him the quite small one,.....

Me:"The cake is the class buy for me one still go extras give you"
Mr Goh:"I want the bigger one, i very hungry haven eat yet"
So i give him the bigger one with strawberry
Mr Goh:"HUH, no fork huh"
Me:" No, use hand lahwe all use hand to eat"
Mr Goh if you don't get me a fork, i will throw this into the dust bin"
Me:"I will try go find for you!!!"

Give Ms Toh and i tell her no fork she say okay never mind :) then i say, you better then that Mr Goh, still want me go find fork. Ms Soo another one, No fork huh!! I say NO but she got her own fork :) Want to go back class....

Me:"Ms Goh, nonono, Mr Goh, i got one fork, use your hand eat."
Mr Goh:"okay then your cake will be in the bin"
Me:"Never mind lah, use hand eat"
Mr Goh:"I am a very civilised people"

So walk to the canteen all the stall is close but still got the friuts stall so ask for a spoon and went up back to outside staffroom but at staircase saw Ms Toh and she say for Mr Goh huh? I say ya!! so irritating.

Me:"Na, no fork only got spoon"
Mr Goh:"Clean anot" (check and look at the spoon)
Me:" CLEAN LAH!!"
Then got one 4E1 girl say he very ma fan right
I say ya lorh some more so irritating.

I REALLY HAVE A GREAT TIME TODAY THANKS FOR GIVING ME ALL THE SURPRISE :D

THANKS EVERYONE :) ~

Ruoyi, Jess, Farhin and Rachel thanks for the trouble you have buying the cakes for me :)
~LOVE YOU ALL ~

2009-10-12T18:01:00.009+08:00

YEAH, MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING :) SOOOOOO HAPPY :D

I just cant wait for the day to come :) Don't know they will plan anything for me anot. But i have to study like mad now cause tmr is Math Paper 2 and POA :/ sure Die DIe DIE!!!!!

Haiz, yesterday night head is pain like hell so i cant get Geo into my head :( i think will fail this time. And i finally can swallow a pill :) 1st time in hist. ahhaha

I have been in so much pain this few days

But can i do

I can only smile and let the pain slowly fade away

It is hard to let go

But i still have to let go no matter what

I guess it have to end sooner or later :(

HAIZ.......

2009-10-09T14:30:00.003+08:00

EOY still got 1more week to go and my birthday oso :D happy and looking forward.

Just noe ask Mr Goh going for class chalet anot he say not too sure.
I say bring your daughter along :)
He say don't want later my daughter got bad influence from you. Where got, i so good girl :)

After that, Wei Hao and Darren chasing me cause want to hit me :/ and i was carrying my bag so run quite slow and that Wei Hao go and pull my bag so him and Darren each hold my arm and hit untill my arm all red and pain like sun burn that kind of pain!!! ASS!!

I just can't forget you!!!!

2009-10-03T15:06:00.003+08:00

I am going crazy, Crazy and CRAZY!!!! Keep getting angry at little things :/ Came home after math, bath and did not eat the fries that i brought as i am tired so went to sleep with song playing on my phone. I just cant get to sleep don't know why. HAIZ..... Why am i thinking?? why cant i just study and study for EOY?? What am i thinking??? Someone pls tell me!!

Why must i fell like this

I really don't want to feel this way

I have forgotten how long i have been feeling this way

Now my eyes is full of tears

Maybe i just cant understand what i am thinking

2009-10-02T18:55:00.003+08:00

Did chinese paper today, paper1 i still can cope but paper2 is damn hard untill i don't know what to do. HAIZ.... I think i really got PMS, Michelle oso have :) today she crazy like siao and i angry over small things :( siao oso!! ahahaha. I really going to study hard for my EOY.

I don't know if i can make it for my EOY

I feel so stress right now

Can someone lend me your shoulder to lend and cry on

I don't give a damn on your facebook comment

So what write there you think 3SA will not make you angry is it!!

I don't know i am getting so fed-up by this little thing

GGRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-01T18:56:00.004+08:00

I have been crying this few days :'(

Today, was have English exams, paper1 not too bad but paper2, i did summary half way, suddenly cry so i faster do finish and went to put my head on the table and i keep crying. Don't know why, maybe i feel to stress about, family and exams :( HAIZ...

Yesterday, Darren sorry that Ms Soo take your phone cause i am using it :( And i will change my phone to take back your phone. Before Ms Soo come in on SS lesson, me and Wei Hao was watching movies on Darren Ipod and suddenly, Wei Hao shout i watch Porn!! I was like WTF, asshole!!! Got so angry with him and never talk to him all the way until A-Math lesson. I cried 2times.

I don't want to keep crying and crying

I want to be happy myself

If you teachers can be happy

Why cant the students?????

I HATE IT!!! FUCK OFF TEACHERS!!!!!

2009-09-28T18:56:00.005+08:00

End-Of -Year will be coming really soon!! going to study from now on. (i guess)

Have fun today, but very shy when i see Lynn the......(you know, i know) ahaha. Will put pictures today :) but is quite old one.

This pic, Jess mgs me and say sorry cause of sat. I already forget but you still send this, very sweet :) love you~~~

This was when Michelle frowning and she didn't know i take her pic :) ahahaha

This one, she knows so turn away :( but nice effect. HAHAHA!!!

This one even long, having breakfast at KFC with Ruoyi. Michelle, you alway let us take your pictures!!

Tan Ruoyi!! eat your rice lah, smile until like that. AHAHAHA!!!

The Rain Falls On My Window

And the coldness runs through my soul

And the rain falls

That make me don't want to be alone

2009-09-25T18:12:00.004+08:00

Today, quite fun not too bad :) After school go BPP and wanted to go Xin Wang buy the bubble tea, walk half way i turn and saw that GOH!! and got quite a number of teachers. So we faster run :)

Tmr still got Math :( so sian. But at night, will go prawn-ing again but this time will have a competition with Jie Jie :) ahahaha, kinda lame :)

Going to mug damn hard of EOY but everyday have to go home and cook. Like got no life like that. I oso need a life you know!! and need time to study. Cant you cook? all you do is watch TV all day long! Then i cook, you complain not nice (which i think is nice), they sometimes don want to eat oso. People tired already still come home and cook for you all to eat and you all don't want to eat. Some more i have to take out my rest ans study time to cook for you all to eat!
I HATE TO BE AT HOME!!!! I REALLY HATE IT!!!! HATE IT!!!

Why must i be the one

I need my own freedom also

Cant i have it

I really cannot take it anymore

Feel like dying

Because i am sick and tired of crying everyday

2009-09-23T18:57:00.003+08:00

Get my IC today. Some say i look mature :) But that GOH say i look to DEMURE in the IC, not like me. GRRRR!! Have alot of fun in His lesson :D laughing and high-ing all the way but feel kind of bad cause never listen in class. ahaha. English remedial, was sit between Wei Hao and that Darren Ngo. HAHAHA*evil* was hitting and pinching left and right. After that, keep pinching NGO and hitting him. ahahaha.

I really don't know what to do already

And what to say to you

All i want is the understanding and not the misunderstanding

I feel very fed-up and confuse

Hope for a better tmr

2009-09-22T18:28:00.003+08:00

Sunday, went Prawning with Jie Jie, Kor Kor and Guma :) We prawn for 1hour cause Jie & Kor going out. I prawn until 6prawn :) 6prawn for $15 not too bad and got the experience oso so not too bad :)
Today English lesson was fun cause we have the lesson at canteen :) Was high-ing non-stop, don't know why. ahaha!! I don't like Ms Tan *(ANGRY)* I just ask Wei Hao how to do this Qn, she say Jolene, Wei Hao is attach lah. I say back, I juat ask him how to do this only!! FUCK LAH!
Ask Qn oso cannot, next time i don't ask lah, fail your MATH!!! STUPID.
I cant wait for a lot of things but EOY come 1st so must mug damn hard cause is like next week!
Haiz......
But right after exams 2 more days, it will be my birthday :) Nov1st to Nov4dn, will be at genting,
Nov20 to Nov21 will have our CLASS CHALET :D cant wait for all this to happens

What does all the teachers one

Do this also cannot

Do that also cannot

So tell me what does teachers want exactly

I HATE TEACHERS!!!!!!!!!

FUCKER

2009-09-18T23:15:00.010+08:00

This is one not too bad cause never use the word BITCH. Was waken up by Jie Jie(cousin) crying last night at mid-night because of this. Even though she delete the post in the blog cause all is a misunderstanding which she know already only the next BITCH don't know what is a misunderstanding.
To be continues........................

This STUPID BITCH say about Jie Jie in her bitchy twitter. I think she scared to say that in front of Jie Jie but Kor Kor (ash) clever call her and scold this bitch until she cry and go call Long(Kor Kor Brother). Like what like that. If i see you, sure scold you like HELL or maybe whack you cause who call you go bully my Jie Jie. WATCH OUT ESTHER!!! DOG!

There was a slightly cold night when the sky rains a little

That is when i heart beat sound like the dance of happiness

The tears that i drop is the cause of my unhappiness

Everyday i just wish to open my eyes and have the happiness right in front of me

I know is very difficult for it to happen

2009-09-17T20:47:00.006+08:00

Okay, very long never update already :)

Today, after Physics lesson, still got 10mins left. Ask Mr Goh if he want to come Class Chalet

Mr Goh:"When"?

Me:"20 to 21 nov".

Mr Goh:"Don't know, see first"

Me:"Cannot see first cause we need to buy food"

Mr Goh:"You see me, never eat alot one"(smiling away).

Me:"Need pay money" :)

Mr Goh:"HUH, i thought FREE"

ME:"Why TEACHER so CHEAPSKATE ONE!"

Mr Goh smiling away.

Then something happened only Jess and Ruoyi know i guess? Not too sure and Jess tell me went going home that time. Stupid sia!!!! Don't know how to tell me earlier.

I will live for those who love me

For those who know my good and bad point

For the one that smiles when i am sad

For my happiness and love

I want all happiness and not sadness

2009-09-10T19:21:00.000+08:00

It have been quite some times since i have post. LETS RECALL.................
Yeaterday 9/9/09
Went out with Ruoyi, Jessabel, Rachel, Kakit, Wei Hao, Wei Chung and Darren to sentosa :) have alot of fun. I am getting darker :( Michelle cant make it :( But there will still be a next time :) The guys take longer time to bath then the girl and we wait for them for 15mins i guess. Then take group photo by the help of some uncle which they speak the language that we don't undestand :/ Bus-ed to BPP and KK, Jess, WC and WH they have dinner together at LJS and i am just beside them in ichiban sushi wit Guma :) I was waiting for the bus opp BPP i saw them so i called WH hp and didn't expect them to come to me and wait for me and Guma go up the bus then they went home. So sweet :D ahahaha.

Monday 7/9/09
Go back school for math :/ did the work sheet for 3hour stright :/ like crazy lik that. Went home around 12+ and bring baby boy go grooming and off we(Guma, Jie Jie, Mei and me) went to IMM to have the Japanese food which is very nice :D Night time went CCK to buy my School Shoe(finally) Guma brought her heels for work(i choose one) ahaha and clothes :)

Friday 4/9/09
Physics was 1st lesson quite fun :) Still don't understand :( After lesson end, help Mr Goh keep the laptop.
I say:" You see, all your fault my dog bite me"
Mr Goh:" My fault huh?? (and nod his head and give the i understand face)
I say:" YA! cause you teach me the sound waves. Then my dog hear the thunder,he go and hide so i pull him out then he bite me!"
MR Goh:" Actually your dog very good, cause he will only bite people that don't listen in class".
Ruoyi:" Hahaha, heng my house no dog only got fish"
Ruoyi ask me where i want to go during my brithday? I say sentosa or Mirina barrage :) Wei Hao say, Want go uh? Go yourself luhs! -.-

At night PTM........

2009-09-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went out with Ruoyi, Jessabel, Kakit, Wei Chung and Jabez. Went to VIVO and Plaza Sing :) When we are at VIVO, we wanted to watch UP there, but end up WC already watch. Then KK went to buy tickets for Orphan(NC16), the person ask 6 IC, which we all don't have :( Then he ask for another show but all left first 2 row so we don't want and headed to eat lunch at Carl's Junior :D The girls take our wallet and went to the counter but awhile later came back cause the price. So we Train-ed to Plaza Sing. And the KK said that "here so familiar." cause he just came from there :)
We went straight up to the cinema, Ruoyi and I thought they already don't want watch but went up we, and we think for very long.
End up decide to spend the money on good food :D After that, we walk aroud the shopping centre, and there is this shop that make Me, Ruoyi, KK and WC stay inside for very very long :D After that, Jabez went home. We went to the Dhoby Ghaut MRT because the guys wanted to check out the lan shop, the girls went to the arcade. Then we saw neoprint machine, and the same thought came up to our mind so we call the guys to come here and they are like HUH!! and don't want lah.
They say don't want and HUH, but they still go to the next neoprint machine for the mirror and even borrowed comb from Ruoyi and ,make their hair -.-
Bus-ed to Guma work place and left WC only in the bus sorry :)

Today was very very sick, want to vomit but cannot come out then head very pain. MT sleep the whole lesson then PHYSICS went to toliet and thatnks Michelle for accompany me to the toliet. Before go back class, wash my face and was looking very sick :/ Didn't understand what Mr Goh was teaching and keep lie-ing on Michelle shoudler.

2009-08-30T21:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to Farm-Mart with Jess and we had alot of fun there :D Then after a while, Jie Jie and Kor Kor came to find us to give me money as i thought of prawn-ing but in the end, did not cause i think is too ex already :( 1hr $15, then Kakit say don't know where 10bucks only so i rather go there prawn :D Then they go off already, me and jess went back to CCK there and we decide to watch Where Got Ghost?? Is funny but some part quite boring :( Before the show, go eat dinner. After the show, the Jess want to go SASA so follow her and see all those make up, and a lot of girly stuff which i don't like :/ I reach home about 10.30pm like that and Guma oso haven come home and the Jess oso cannot stay until so late :( Next time i want to stay until late late oso don't know ask who to accompany me :( But i think Michelle can :)

Today, bake cakes for Teachers Day tmr :D i just love baking and be a chef is my dream :D ahahaha.

I don't exactly know what it means to be ready
A cake when the oven timer goes off
Am I fully baked or only half-baked?

2009-08-28T21:20:00.000+08:00

STUPID SIA!! The Mr Goh, i don't know how to do the calculate the resistance and all the other thing then i keep calling him, MR GOH! F-ing so many times but all he do is go the the BITCH there and i don't like her voice like very irritating like that, she think is very nice and cute. EEEEEEEEEE!!! Then now, i don't even know how to do, tell me how am i going to do my homework, don't even understand a single thing. Another outing cancel cause all say that only got abit people go so don't want to go, so wait until tuesday then go. I don't few like going on tuesday, i want to read my chinese cause i got stupid chinese oral the next day :( they always plan already, then last minutes don't want go. I fail my POA, can you belive it. I did very badly for my CT2 this time round :( going to work extra hard for my EOY, but i think i am just that one that cannot study too good for my exams one :( i really don't like it lah!!!

Your torns ripped me
And prick me deeply
A scar which is undesirable
A wound which would never heal
No matter how much effort it took to heal
It just would not heal......

2009-08-27T22:25:00.002+08:00

Quite long never post already cause got nothing much to write and need to buck up my studies. Next friday PTM(parent teachers meeting) sian, Guma will be going and i don't know what Ms Soo and Mr Goh will say about me to her. Hope is nothing something bad :( i think will talk about my result cause i think this CT2 i did not put in my best in it :( kind of slack to much this term. Did a bit of physics for the topic that i don't understand and the Mr Goh today teach so fast and i cant get a thing, so his homework i oso don't know how to do and i am sure that tmr will have a talking/scolding :/
Tmr dance will sure be very fun one cause i ask Mr Seah to change the girl to the "GUY". I think before even the class start dancing, we all will be laughing like crazy :D

Ruoyi, sorry for not going to the choir night to support you :) will make it up for you :D promise. once i promise i will not break it.

It is the love you provided
That made me say
How much i love you from the start
It is the care that you gave
Which made me love you
It is fate that brought us together
A trust we had together
The things we shared together
Without it i am just as good as nothing to myself

I REALLY HATE TODAY ALOT

2009-08-24T18:30:00.002+08:00

I REALLY HATE TODAY ALOT!!!!!!!
Why the teachers so big mouth? The STUPID GOH, i did not even say that i will give up math because of my physics. If i say i give up my math, will i still study at night when i go home that time? And i really hate to be accuse when i did not do/say that. What do you all teachers want from me??? I REALLY CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!! During A-Math, i get back my paper 18/35 and i don't know why i suddenly brust into tears and cry until quite bad. My eyes were very red and swollen abit. I really don't know what to do now cause my mid-year, is A1/2 now is a C6/5, like a very big jump for me :(

All i ever want is to be happy
And smile all day with NO sad feelings
Tell me what do you all teachers want from me
Why cant i decide my own fate
Why must the teachers help me choose
I want F&N you give me POA which i am not interest in
I HATE THE TEACHERS!!!

2009-08-22T20:00:00.000+08:00

I HAVE BEEN VERY VERY VERY LONG that i have post in my blog :) bcak from the exams stress to my hyper type already :) But still got EOY :( I thing i will fail my A-Math :( Lets start of on wednesday.....

19/8/o9---wednesday
After school, slack at the canteen with Jess untill 3pm like that, went to find weihui and went up to 4E1 there to wait for the MR GOH!! cause got Qn to ask him and after a while, Ruoyi came and Mr Goh told us to wait outside there as he go to Staff-Room to rest for a while. So we waited and waited, decided to go down and call him come up, GUESS WHAT, the 3E3 people where there like don't let him go. We want ask Qn oso like cannot like that. I REALLY HATE 3E3 people act until like shit only and the GOH, keep asking us to wait and wait and wait[ANGRY]. Then after the 3E3 still got the 4E1 girl i oso, tmr they don't have exam cannot wait it is?? After they all left, only left Jabez, Ruoyi, Weihui and me :) then the GOH say he want to go inside do his stuff and will come out later. Then we all go canteen buy Ice-Cream yummy :D then came back up and read through it ourself. The GOH finally will come out by hhimself no need to call him. 6.30pm leave the school together with MR GOH and we were blocking the road cause don't let him go and her honk at us. We let him go that time, i was like A taxi taxi and flag my hand :) so fun :D

20/8/09---Thursday
Morning, went to school and was outside the staff room to wait for thr GOH to reach school. When he come out, he ask me:"you yesterday never go hom huh?"
Me:"How you know, i stay here all night to study, i thought you know" :) He ask me:"you not hot huh?" I say :"hot lah, no wind and fan."
He ask again:"whyoff the light?" I say:" is auto off one." Ask so many Qn and so many complain. I keep looking at the time and say, shit I got duty.
Mr Goh say:"then you go do lah, don't hai me." I say:"aiya, don't care lah." After school got Chem. During the break, Jess, Michelle, Ruoyi, Weihui and me go toliet, snatch the last toliet with Jess and she go open the door but i think they never see. Then when she go to the toliet, i open and close the door until the sec1 girls go out of the toliet cause we all siao siao one :D all keep laughing non-stop. After Chem, went up to the roof there and "STUDY" with Ruoyi and Jabez and I keep making alot of noise to distured the Mr GOh cause he inside 4E1. hahahaha :)

21/8/09---Friday
Went out with Ruoyi and Jabez to IMM and we take our time to walk around and talk alot. Then Jabez very funny lorh. Tuesday going out again :) watch movie WHERE GOT GHOST :)

Today
I think i have screw up my A-math paper :( then after the paper, went BPP with Jess and Jabez, the 3Js ahahaha. But Jess have to go early cause of her tuition. Then the 2 of us are in the libary like so bored :(
I spend 1hour in this post :) and is like super long.

Tomorrow is an adventure
That we will share together now
Our future is intertwined forever
I promise to remember
In the future years and days
The love I feel for you this moment
Dreams fulfilled today

2009-08-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

Quite long never post already cause have been trying very hard to study. Today was a super tired day as i was in school until quite late cause waiting for YOGA :) ahaha. I was outside 4E1 and was helping her do the math don't really know Mr Goh come out and when i turn, saw him smiling and looking at us. I went into the class and saw the 4E1 people draw Mr Goh like so nice and good looking which he is not :D Go outside staff room and YOGA use her phone call him and he never anwer so i use mine and when it stop ringing, I say:'Hello'. Got no sound, i check my phone, see that it have already been pick up so i hello again and he say hello and ask what you want, i say YOGA do finish her work already, want to find you can come out, he say later, i was like HUH!! CANNOT, still want later. he say ok. IRRITATING. Have been very quiet in his class these few days and don't understan what he teaching :( Anyway, going to study if not i really cant think what my CT2 result will be like.

If I had one wish today
I will just want a simple wish that would be
To feel the love that you are giving me
And hope it LAST ETERNALLYL

A VERY BORING DAY!!!

2009-08-11T22:01:00.002+08:00

A very boring day for today :( tmr i think oso will be another boring day which can sleep the whole day. facebook cant update my photo :( willl try again tmr. Today all the lesson was super boring and wated to fall asleep already even the lesson i looking forward turns out to be very boring :/
Tme will be even worst day, got math test, geo and ss sure die die die.

I glow with my smile
Every time i see you near me
My heart jumps
Because i know how much you care for me
Yesterday was just a dream
A wish to contemplate

changi village hotel

2009-08-10T19:43:00.003+08:00

Back from changi village hotel :) I just loves the toliet. Will post the photo in facebook cause blogger cant post.
Yesterday, only me and Guma go. Jie Jie and Kor Kor already in the hotel on Sat and their room is on the 4th floor and our room on the 7th floor which is the 2nd last floor as the 8th floor is the swimming pool :D Change and Jie Jie come to our room and call me go swim so we go up there and is a rooftop swimming pool super cool :) We keep going to the glass panel there so see the view and lie down on the don't know what is that. Watch NDP and went down to eat dinner. When Guma and Kor Kor outside smoking, Jie Jie and Me we go to the toliet and the sign is made of crystal super cool :D When back room play poker should have play money cause i keep winning :D I drink Jolly Shandy nice :)

Today, come back home and at night Guma is going malaysia with my grandma as her God-daughter past away which is oso my Guma friend.
Tomorow school starts but i still in the holiday mood :)

2009-08-07T17:31:00.000+08:00

I folded 40cranes in 2 hours which we are suspose to fold 50cranes :) is like still quite little but is the thought that count :) We are force to drink the NEW WATER which taste funny. Pour the water out of the window :) smart people do that ahahaha :D Concert and the MC is that bitch which act cute until like what like that. After that, stay in school for a while and thanks Kan for waiting for the bus with me :) Just wake up not long ago. Cant wait for sunday as i am going to changi village hotel :) sure will be very fun one.

Give me a reason to smile
I want that kind that will last for a while
Everything you do
It means so much to me

2009-08-06T20:49:00.001+08:00

NKK, you are all so FUCKED UP MAN!!! I really hate you, give pink form for all i care man. You are really like a....... GRRR!!! waste my time only. Haiz it is just too bad for me have to see your face every chinese lesson :/ like what only. Come and find me and kerin during the folding cranes that time and he talk finish thaat, i was super angry already and i go hit on to the walk and only got few tears drop out of my eyes, i think is yesterday cry too much already thats why.
Lets talk about yesterday, people early morning the mood was not too bad cause will be meeting Michelle at her house there and walk to school cause quite long never walk to school with her. I at the bus-stop there, the ruth come and talk to me like she very big like that but she is just a small and skinny girl, so i get super angry spoil my mood. In the hall that time, Ms Soo call me go out cause she want to talk to me. So we talk and then i say quite loud that what you want me too do? And just cried out so Ms Soo was like you go there cool down 1st so i was like crying and wated to hit the wall but Ms Tan was looking and got the SC super KPO lah,nothing better to do see people cry. I went back to the hall and was quiet the whole time. When back class hitting the window and in class Jess and Michelle touch my shoulder and i hit away and don't know why the tears just drop down like this. MT lessson oso cried 2 times :) don't know why so emotional this few days.

I am really really very tire about all the things around me
Feel like just dying so i can left all the things behind
If today was my last day
I will just FORGET ALL THE MEMORIES

2009-08-03T18:34:00.005+08:00

Pack my room yesterday night untill 11+ amd i relise that 2girls(me and my cousin) the bedroom can be sooo messy untill...... Not going to carry on.
In the contorl room in the morining so cool blow air-con :) but vert very cold cause they want 18DEG :/ Math 1st and then MT :/ like what, i bring textbook he don't want to use i never bring, he want to use. GRRR!!! PEfun, go inside the PE room pack spoil bicycle and the non-spoil bicycle so dirty. But fun :D went up to the ISH toilet there with Michelle and Ruoyi :) play with water and got make untill Ruoyi alittle bit wet in the shirt or don know where. SORRY :)
The water abit oso never make untill you, why cry untill like there is NO TOMORROW!!!! Then you cry can don't need come back class study one huh? like what, next time i cry i oso don't want come back class can lah. EEEEEEEEEE!! like what only i have keep my cool all along towards you but you really make me lose my cool, make me domn pissed and super fed-up
so shut the F-up man, i am not really going to be a Miss Nice to you already.

AHHH!!! i hate today and tomorrow, got GEO and SS. SS still can listen to song, GEO cant do anything, hope thet the teacher don't come again.

I don know why i am feeling this way
Maybe is just that i am not in a good mood
Or the feeling is real towards me
GRR!! I really don't know what to do already
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!!
Just fell like dying so i will not be like this
Or maybe i will go smoke

2009-08-01T23:15:00.004+08:00

Walk to Michelle place today and waited for her under her block for her to be ready so that we can walk to school together :) We are like 15mins late and i think we miss one Qn :/ After math, when to BPP with Michelle, Jabez and Vijay. Vijay went home after we all eat finish. Then the three of us go library there aas Jabez want to read book. Michelle and Me go see the hotels book at is super nice and we talk quite loudly :) to make KK and R to hear us. KK is like very what lorh, lie to Jabez because he was going out with R like what lah him:/ R can you pls don't act like you don't know all those dirty stuff as we all know that you are acting but not KK as you treat him very different from us. And stop using ME! when you got no friends who want to stay with you. FUCK OFF BITCH!!!!

Went home, bath-ed and went out to VIVO with Guma to buy her bag. Then wait at BPP for Jie Jie and Kor Kor to come drink starbuck, sit sit and talk talk :) Go see Kor Kor want to buy the phone but the shop there don't have. And he drive us home after that :) Guma went to KTV and now i am alone in the room :( so sad. Think not going to sleep so early maybe wait for Guma to come home 1st or Jie Jie to come home 1st then i sleep :) Don't know can take it anot.

I am not going to cry again

Not going to drop a tears for you anymore

I also don't wish too be like this

Cause i am just not myself

Even i don't understand myself either

2009-08-01T00:30:00.006+08:00

Physics, got test. When up to the broad to do 1Qn and keep disturbed Wei Hao as he oso at the white board there do another Qn. Hit his chest and he go push me. You better watch out hor Lee Wei Hao.
Math, all the guys are munching on potato chips when Ms Tan is teaching.
PE take height and weight but i don't want take cause all the people is at there want to see what is your height and weight only like what only. I grow shorter :( the thing fake one, where got i last year 162 now 159 :/
Chinese lesson got suspension again :/ now is like a normal routine for me already. Always like that one. Really hate it man.

After school lrt-ed to BPP with Ruoyi and simin. When we are at the shop there, someone slap my face, thought who wanted to schold F already but is my LOVER :) Miss you lots <3

Tmr still got math. SIAN!!!

Everyday past so slow and difficult for me
Cause no matter what i do you will never see it
I really miss making fun of you
cause it have been a very long time that i last see you
Even i have tell myself to forget you
But i just cant do it as it is very hard to do it
Why cant i just throw away all the memories that have you in i
As it have become a very very painful scars which i cant erase it
I must have become a fool, a real big fool

I SCREW MY CHINESE CT2 PAPER!!!!!!!!

2009-07-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

Fuck lah, my chinese CT2 i only get 23/100 can you belive?? "SO GOOD" untill i cant belive it either. Don't like today lesson but Geo teacher never come so good :D use Handphone through out :) Next chinese:/ take back paper and i was like what the fuck, don't know how to write miuns mark. So i never even copy dnow the answer cause i was busy playing Wei Hao PSP the bomberman untill no batt :) HAHAHAH. Sian tmr got stupid CCA really don't feel like going :/ waste my time over there only like what only. I WANT TO QUIT!!!

Tmr got Physics but don't know Mr Goh will come in to the class anot. If have can make noise, If don't have cannot make much noise :( I will oso ask him back the fisherman! Ahahahha :)

I really don't feel like i am in my ownself
Just feel that i am not myself
I really wanna know what is wrong with me
I cant even controlled the way i feel
Keep wondering why am i feeling like this
DO YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL.....???

2009-07-28T21:46:00.001+08:00

Ruoyi, sorry that your fisherman kana take by Mr Goh. I will buy you a new one :D

Chinese did CT2 which i think i will sure fail did not even understand all the words so just any how do :/ Some more always chase me out of the class tell me how to study like this always is the 3SA people get chase out where got fair is you don't like 3SA then say lah don't need to pick point on us one.

After A-Math, walk to BPP with Tan Ruoyi and wei hui, was high-ing all the way, me and Ruoyi keep hitting each other with the english worksheet :D Brought lunch, went to Ruoyi house there eat and watch CARTOON :D Left her house around 5+ brought Ice-Cream and go to car park there want to find the Mr Goh car and you know i know ahahahahaha :D Cause don't want to give me back the fisherman. Thanks Ruoyi for accompany me wait for the bus :D Loves you :) hahahaha

My life is super sucks now
I don't know why also
Maybe have been too slack
Don't feel like studying these few days
ALL I EVER WANTED IS TO BE HAPPY ALL DAY......

2009-07-26T23:10:00.002+08:00

Why cant you just fuck off. and stop saying that Michelle is angry or what so ever, cause she is not. And i don't want to hear all the things about you and KK.
You are not pretty at all only your hair make you look pretty. I don want you in my life.

I want to bake cakes but these few days busy and sleep super early :(
Yesterday, after math, went bpp with Michelle ate,chatted and bus-ed home. After that went out with Guma :D
Friday, when home very early, take a nap and dream about something that is super weird ahahahaha :D

Even if you don't know how i feel
But you can see it by yourself
If you can tell me how you feel i think that will be better
I am still thinking of you
But you may not know it too

2009-07-22T22:49:00.001+08:00

Today i finally saw you :D super happy and you was telling Wei Hao that group there that you saw me at BPP on sat and bad-mouth about me :/ but was quite fun lah :D And ther is some thing wrong with the blogger. GRRR!!! By the way, thanks Ruoyi for changing my blog skin and my song :D

Yesterday---Racial Harmony Day was fun have alot of pictures taken but ccause of blogger, cant post :(

Monday----was super damn pissed of by my chinese teacher we just late for class not even 10minutes then he call us go to office there sit for the whole lesson but was fun sitting there, eating sweets and pokey :D He go give us DC fuck him lah, 1st time in my life, i kana DC :/ NKK YOU SUCKS TO THE CORE!!!! If next year you still my chinese teacher, i will sure go and appeal to change teacher. I REALLY HATE YOU TO THE CORE!!!!!!!

I have not been talkig to you for quite a long time and wew talk quite alot just now in class :D

2009-07-18T23:56:00.006+08:00

Walk to school with Michelle and we are late for 5-10 minutes like that. Michelle was eating the ZOO LAND biscuits that i brought for her :) without Ms Tan knowing. Me and Jessabel wanted to got lot1 at first but she change her mind and we go BPP. Ate, once again saw the MR GOH! the irritating one. I told him last week your daughter oso not DEMURE then he say cause she haven reach 2years old and say i going to be in my 20s already i was like WTH and say i still 14 haven 15 yet! He say that whay i say going to 20s. LOL! Then he at there want smile but don't want smile. His daughter saw me and she keep frowning at me :( Finally talk to you like in super super long never talk already. Went to laser fair next to the see DVD and i didn't know he was looking at me and i turn and saw him again :/ and he make a stupid sound so i say suay ah. His wife keep laughing :) Bus-ed home, did math and off i go to IMM there with Guma and walk around and eat the chocolate-banana cake from secrets recipes :D yummy.

Love will starts with a very nice smile

And it will ends with a tears drop

I just hope to see and never wake up again

Cause i think my life is not a very good one i guess

2009-07-18T01:01:00.003+08:00

Cant get to sleep now :( afternoon sleep until 7.50pm to 8pm then wake up. So now cant sleep. Sian. I think back when i am in primary 2 that time, something real bad happened to me only Jessabel knows.

I want some one to be there for me when i need a shoulder or listening ear

I also want some one that can understand me

Feeling quite emo now and i want some one to be here to be my listening ear

As i really cant take it anymore i want to say everything

That i have hide in my hearts all out

Why am i feeling this way

I am just not suppose to feel this way one

I hope to make everything to be perfect

Even though everything is not perfect in the world

I HAVE TO SEE BEYOND THE IMPERFECTION...

2009-07-17T21:19:00.004+08:00

What a bad day i have today. What must you be such a BITCH+SLUT! And what is the problem with you? I eat the chocolate (DOVE) that Michelle give me, and you like not happy, you oso have what given by your Chinese teacher, so why must you look at me like you not happy like that when i eat? FUCK YOU!! I eat you oso eat like a dog or should i say copy cat? FAKE, IPHONE why still want to show off the stupid CHINA PHONE!!! You are like using Jessabel and Me, cause when you don't have friends you will come and find us. So just FUCK OFF!

Sorry starting off my blog by using a lot of mean word :D Wah, the new Physics teacher like very what oso. After the work that i do finish, i sleep through out the lesson end :D She teaches so fast and i don't even understand :/ I today morning from my house, walk to Michelle house and then we walk to school together so fun :) I guess tml i will be walking with her to school :) got math super boring :/

It have been a long time that i saw you

And when can you come back and teach us

I want it to be as soon as possible

Why am i missing you

I thought i have to forget you

But i think i still cant do that

Is like so hard to forget someone

2009-07-15T21:57:00.008+08:00

Not really enjoy my all the lesson today cause all so boring one :( Only after school the English remedial i have alot of fun :D was laughing all the way don't know why super high :D Making alot of noise :D I don know what i say, Kerin and Me was like keep laughing, laughing and laughing non-stop :D until our stomach pain. Then went BPP eat, slack and bus-ed home :( Don't like to stay at home.

Tml hope the carrot cakes don't come and if the new Physics teacher give my class attitude or me, i will sure make her life in 3SA a miserable one. hahahahahaha :D

I don't know if i have change

Or is just that i want to be myself
I just feel like my life have been passing-by with no happiness

What should i do to have happiness

Cause i have be isolating misery

I HAVE TO SEE BEYOND MY IMPERFECTION

Hahaha my ZOOLAND BISCUITS :D
YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY :D
LOVE IT. hahahaha

2009-07-14T21:54:00.005+08:00

YEAH! carrot cake is not in school for the past 2days so don't have to see her :) Then I quarrel with my chinese teacher (angry). Anyway, was looking forward for PHYSICS today but the new teacher give us attitude F*** Her! Cannot get high with Ruoyi and today all the lesson is so boring one :( But A-Math Mr Rao is very funny :D Slack in school for awhile and went home so early today not use to it. Tomorrow still got English remedial after A-Math which is 3.15pm haiz :(

When i am with my friends

Or in your lesson

I am myself the always very high one

But in other lesson or with not so close friends

I am just not myself

Cause nobody knows better then myself

I can only hold you in my dreams

And that is enough already

I don't ask for more then this

I JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF

2009-07-11T23:19:00.003+08:00

Have a very fun day today :D You can say i unlucky or lucky cause after Math in the morring, Michelle, Jess and Me went BPP to eat so we go cafe cartel there eat. Michelle and Me we eat the breakfast and Jess want to eat the lunch. Michelle, we have the "BEST BREAKFAST" right?? ;) Then after we eat finish, we walk walk and Jess suddenly say what if we saw Teacher here, i was like NO LAH! Walk pass four leaf, i saw hey, that is GOH and i shouted Mr Goh, he turn back and see and i ask you every sat come here one huh? He say "YES" When he want to clean his daughter mouth, she don't want let him clean :) I Monday confirm say your daughter oso not DEMURE :D

When to west mall with Jess and watch haunting in Connecticut dam nice :D but is scary, I WANT WATCH AGAIN! and now i cant go sleep :( so wait for my aunt come home 1st then tell her sleep with me :) Then after the show, we walk around and guess what, saw Ms Soo and her BF :) She go watch Ice age 3 I ask her if she want the popcorn but she don't want so have to bring home :( Ms Soo stay near West Mall. I thought Sat she will go town one but no she got heartland shopping mall :)

You will never know what will happen tomorrow

Cause life is so crazy that nothing is guaranteed

So live it to the fullest

When i smile to myself with no reason

I think that i am smiling because i am thinking of you

As you always light up my day

2009-07-10T22:37:00.007+08:00

Have alot of fun in PHYSICS :D I don know why Physics is the only fun lesson this year :) Starting, i very random ask Mr Goh, why your daughter's so cute you not cute one ;) And the say it doesn't matter cause they will grow up to be DEMURE!!!!! I was like WTH why must stress that word and look at me when saying that word :/ I help him setup the Laptop and i lazy to go out to on the switch so i call Mr Goh to help me on but he say NO so i pulled my table out and he suddenly say never mind, i help you on. I already pull my table out then you say you help me on the switch :/ So irritating lah he, so i got to push back my table :( And he teach Echo and say when you in the toilets, sing songs will sound very nice one cause got Echo and i say you confirm got sing inside the toilets before one and when you sing, you daughter will be outside crying/screaming (i make the sound) hahaha :D Tml still got to go back school for math :(

Yesterday, fold paper cranes which i don't really like to fold :/ Then Mr Goh came to our class and Ruoyi or who ask him why he come our class then he say he want to learn how to fold. lol
But when he fold the cranes that time, the face is like a little boy who just learn how to fold the cranes and very serious one :)

Time stand still when no-one understands you

And you don't understand yourself

If today things did not go it ways

You still have tomorow to make things right

So you have to be strong now

And make things better even is in those stormy days

Cause it might be stormy now but it will not be forever

SO THINK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF YOUR WORLD :)

2009-07-08T22:29:00.005+08:00

Today had a very fun day :D But i have to sit beside Li An the china girl. Then Physics go lab so fun :D Mr Goh was teaching the don't know what fork lah then he want to say it in chinese, i tell Li An in chinese say that the fork can turn one :) and Mr Goh was like shhh don't confuse funny then Ruoyi don't know say what and she got to sit beside Li An already :D haha good for you Ruoyi ;D If you want me to say chinese, can but i cannot say word by word one if not i will mix mix with english and will become singlish :) Just came back form sakura and very full now. On the way home in Kor Kor car, i ask Jie Jie what is LC then she keep laughing non-stop and i say what is BJ she laugh even more :( but never tell me and say Ash Kor Kor know what is it. LOL!

I told myself to be better once i get over you

But still i cant do it

Cause when i look into your eye, smile and i feel that the feeling is still there

There is nothing we can do to stop love

Not even hate

I WILL NOT HATE A PERSON BUT I WILL FORGIVE BUT WILL NEVER FORGET

2009-07-07T22:23:00.003+08:00

Today school sucks like HELL for me even you got walk pass the class few times :) but still the lesson is very boring :( When CHEM lesson, i was hugging my bag and got tears just come rolling down but thanks god no one saw it :) Tml even worst got POA and the carrot cake want give test again GRRR!! Really don't like her why Physics and English can change to other teacher for a while or one term but POA never change teacher :( Tml late day and end early :D YEAH!

I have told myself not to drop anymore tears

But it just came rolling down by itself

Does it means once you cry

You will feel better

Or make it even more worst

2009-07-05T00:16:00.003+08:00

Dam piss now cause my dog pee at my bolster GRRRR!!!! I am going to buy a new one :)

On the way to TP, saw Kakit in the bus but he never wear spec and look mature. Went there to eat Sizzler and i saw a guy i think around my age like that make a his Ice Cream cone so high i wonder how he going to eat [L] :D Then Jie Jie drive us back home but we brought Starbucks coffee and sit down at the multi-hall there cause Guma and Jie Jie want to talk because Jie Jie and Kor Kor Fight again :( But i think now ok already :) Left my phone in the car :( feel so weird without my Phone.

When i am down

I feel that you will always be there for me

And give me warmth

I am always smiling when i see you

Cause i don't want to see my tears

Even you don't know how i feel inside

CAUSE I WANT TO BE HAPPY :D

2009-07-03T23:05:00.003+08:00

We ( Neh Neh, Jess, Rachel and Me) actually was going to Yuki Yaki one but they say too far so never go :( and went to Jurong Point there eat Thai Food :) yummy. We brought cakes for Neh Neh and he wanted to cry when we sing him brithday song when the cake is take out by the staff and he nearly want to cry out but never :D Then walk here and there want to see new pencil box but Jess and Neh Neh don't let me see :( cause i see already want bring my Aunty come and she pay money and they was like huh you not pay yourself one meh? LOL cause i don't want to use my money :P Ms Soo thanks for the ferrero rocher :)
Anyway, thanks Neh Neh for the treat today :D

Another day have just gone like this

I still feel that is not a nery happy day today for me

How i wish you could be here

So i can tell you stuff

But some times i see you

I will run out of words don't know what to say

As if my tougue was stuck or what

Going to stay HAPPY from now on :)

2009-07-02T20:38:00.004+08:00

What a fun day today :) Physics lesson Mr Goh was late and when he come, give us do worksheet is your holiday home work so the one that i do he go take and put it at a table beside Michelle. And doing last one, he say wah so rich go eat subway so i say back no is Jess want to eat so we go eat :) Then he say now a days student eat better then teacher and i talk back so no i saw you at Cafe Cartel and Hong Kong Cafe then next time Jack Place and Ichiban sushi and all of then laugh :D Then he say cause Cafe Cartel got free flow of bread and water so only one person order can already cause the rest eat bread and drink water, i shouted NO! :) Like making fun of him :D Sian tml got his test :( Feel so tire don't feel like studying.

I have been thinking too much

When i see you smile

I feel quite happy

I just want to be happy again

Like the past and not drop tears

ALL I WANT IS TO BE HAPPY :)

2009-07-01T22:34:00.002+08:00

Not really in a good mood today don't know why leh :( Then today all lesson is super DAM bored one lorh but only English is fun cause got a new teacher (gay) so funny keep laughing with Michelle :D tml have to see Ms Soo 3HOURS straight :/ SIAN! But looking forward for English and Physics tml hahaha so can talk alot :D

All good things always end too fast

Why cant it be longer

Have been thinking alot of stuff the past few days until i cant get to sleep

I have been pretending to be okay when i am not

Just what am i thinking

I cant even understand myself now

2009-06-30T22:20:00.003+08:00

Today Physics lesson was so funny RIGHT MICHELLE! Mr Goh show us a videos here is the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjOGNVH3D4Y right Michelle :) Just feel happy today don't know why maybe saw you at bpp but luckily i did not eat my subway bread yet ;) if not will be very pai seh one :) Run away for Chinese again :) so fun lah keep running away and the NKK really sucks like hell :/

Yesterday first thing in the morning still in the bus waiting for it to turn and reach the bus stop and i saw a car plate that look familiar and i keep looking and trying to think and when it turn finish, i saw Mr Goh in the car then i remember is his car and is like why i cant remember is it i have forgetten him or what??

Maybe the feeling is back or what

I really don't know maybe

I just don't know how to control my feeling

Or i just don't know who to step back

Is really hard for me to forget you

2009-06-28T23:21:00.007+08:00

Yesterday when to DFS with Guma, Auntie Alice, Jie Jie, Kor Kor, Me and Ah Mei :) Go there to shop and Jie Jie brought GUCCI sunglass after so many GUCCI wallet, SAVATORE FERRAGAMO heels and other stuff :) After that cab to VIVO with Guma, Auntie Alice and Ah Mei. Then the love bird when to other place to shop, meet them at VIVO and Kor Kor drive us go to have dinner a Chinese restaurant and we order crab and prawn and Jie Jie was like hey last time you kill their friend alive and now want to eat then and i was noooooo :) Then i wanted to say Ginger the old the better (in chinese) Then say until i don't understand what i saying and even all of them :D And went to Party World KTV there cause Guma friends are at there so we oso go there and i drink beer mixed with red wine :D drink alot but still not drunk :( I want to get drunk. All the grown up when outside to smoke and left the children and me (cause i not children) haha :) in the room which look so empty cause the room is so big and i sing quite a number of songs :D And left at about 3++am. Wake up today head dam pain. YEAH tml school starts :) hehe.
SEE YOU SOON MY "LOVE" haha (Michelle, Ruoyi, Jessabel, Rachel and NEH NEH)

Can tell me where is the rainbow

I want it to return my wish

And let go, said too much

Then those things can't be realised

Perhaps time is a kind of cure

It is also the poison

I am taking right now

2009-06-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

Yesterday Ms Soo called my house and i just wake up and brushing my teeth half way and the phone rings and my sister say if for me so i go get the phone (haven brush finish my teeth yet) and she ask my i talk so soft cause not like me and i say just wake up only and she laugh :/ Then ask me Qn and say ok you can go back and sleep. LOL!!!

Did some math today but still got quite a number of Qn haven do yet. And tml going to TOWN yeah finally :D Sooooo long never go already and going shopping :)

I hope the dream does not have to end so fast

Cause i just want to stay in my dreams forever

I also hope that the sadness will slow down with out a sound

Or recall for me all the sadness

I just want happiness

2009-06-22T22:55:00.003+08:00

Rot at home the whole but i got cook dinner :) And yesterday night or mid-night bake cake ;) Then it turn out to be nice even when the 1st time that i take out the cake is not cook yet so put back in :P Still got math and english homework haven do yet so sian and don't feel like doing it. Want to watch ICE-AGE 3 :)

Yesterday night i had a dream

Walking at the desert

And i finaly understand

That love exists in the blank space

2009-06-21T03:34:00.004+08:00

Haiz still didn't get to eat dinner with Jie Jie again today :( Maybe next week going to have dinner togather :D yeah but cant put to much hope cause later she go will still go out with Ash Kor Kor. Just now when to Zhen Fa live seafood there to eat and the prawn is alive and when i want to take the prawn and put it into the steamboat then it jump out of the pot :/ But i like their chocolate eclair :P Yummy.

I will just have one last cry

And put all the past behind

I am not going to cry again

MUST BE STRONG :)

2009-06-20T00:06:00.003+08:00

Did some math in the afternoon until i fed-up :/ I cook dinner again for today :) and tml finally going to have dinner with Jie Jie :D cant wait.

I cant explain this feeling

But i just have to let the feeling go

Even through is hard to do it

Just have to carry on with my life

NOT GOING TO WASTE ANOTHER DAY

2009-06-18T23:49:00.003+08:00

Have fun with Ruoyi just now at west mall ;) We meet at 10am at bpp cause watching the 11.10am Drag Me To Hell :) Is super nice, scary but i don't like the ending :( Ruoyi was scared and keep holding on to my arms. haha like to watch this kind of scary show or ghost one with Ruoyi and Michelle cause they will scream haha :D so funny when they scream :) Now i want to watch I Love You Man but is NC16 :( Jie Jie say is funny.

Sometimes the road of our life takes us to

Some where that we don't belong

But it will give us surprise

2009-06-17T23:49:00.003+08:00

Jie Jie and I cook Meat-ball Pasta yummy :) We make a super big meat ball for Guma cause left the rest and we lazy to roll into small small so just roll the rest together and make the super big one haha :) Tml going to watch Drag Me To Hell confirm will be dam scary one ;) I want to play sims night life so fun :D Michelle thanks for your listening ear :)

I am not going to care anymore

I will just live my life as normal

Like how i behave in class with Ruoyi during Physics

Carry on :)

2009-06-16T22:36:00.006+08:00

Mood is really stress out now and don't know what to do. Not about love or anything is just about me and the bitch. Anyway morning when to Jess house and we chat, play SIMS 3 and we make, Rachel, Me and Jess + another one only me and Jess know ;) From bukit gombak station, walk all the way to bukit batok driving center there and take bus home. Just don't want to go home so early. Then we were having cat fight when talking to Rachel on MSN :) And thanks Michelle for listening to my big big secert and Ruoyi :)

I guess the feeling is not completely fade yet

Maybe i will just like you back but not as deep as last time

Cause i recall that time when you treat me very good and i will never forget that

(MG)

The lonely night up above in the sky is making me feel lonely also

I have try to search for my strength to carry on

Now my every hope have seem to die

All the things that i couldn't see clearly last time

Is now all so clear to me now

2009-06-16T00:48:00.003+08:00

Don't know why i wake up so early in the morning. Then was rotting at home the whole day listening to 98.7FM then 5pm watch Ellen DeGeneres so funny the sumo part :) Then leaves the house at 5.15pm like that go BPP find Ruoyi and slack at there until 7pm like that i go Guma work place find her and i waited for her for 30minutes then she come out ;/ When to the coffee house there eat and wait for jie jie and kor kor the coach come back from KL :) Jie Jie ask me if this Yam Sago is hot or cold the i say i don't know and go touch the bottom of the pot and say ouch is hot one :) and my hand was so painful cause the thing is really very hot :( I was so dumb go and touch the pot. But the cakes there are very nice and the lamb chop :P yummy

Now my hearts is fill with a lot of happy dreams

And i want to find a way to make it all come true

But now i have to follow the dreams and make them to become reality

Maybe i will never make the dreams come true

And i will never be how i am all a long

I might not get to be how i am

I just want some one to understand me

That is all i want

2009-06-14T00:54:00.003+08:00

Went to Causeway Point just now and eat sake sushi :) Then go courts and i thinking of buying a laptop cause i have aim that HP one so nice :) walk around with Guma here and there i just love going out with her cause i will be crazy after i reach home :D every time like that one hehe. We sit down and drink coffee and they play a very old song, i know a little bit so when reach the part i know i sing to Guma and we were laughing :D but not too loud :)

I have been sleeping late this few days

Cause i just cant get to sleep

When i close my eye the flash back of MG will come back

I don't want this to happened so i sleep very late

So that my mind will be tire that time and i wouldn't think back

Now my heart will take me to where they want to go

MY HEART HAVE A REASON TO LOVE SOMEONE

BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS THE REASON

2009-06-12T22:46:00.002+08:00

Wake up quite early today and help jie jie pack her stuff in the bag but she keep asking me if she bring this can or bring that. I oso don't know so i just say erm can anything oso can :) Just hang up the phone with her :D She at KL i at here so sian :( I want to get out of the house don't know when can hang out with them. Some more i want to watch Drag Me To Hell but don't know if they one to watch anot cause is quite scary :P but i like even i know that i will be scare until but i still want to watch :) Don't know why i very emotional these few days :(

Should i smile because you are my friend

Or should i cry because that is all we can be

When i talk to you my heart will skip a beat

Is hard to love some one because you are afraid to lose them

Love is like in a dreamland having all the wonderful stuff

So i hope that my dreams does not have to end

Cause it takes a life time to find some one you love

But it takes a while to fall in love with that person

2009-06-11T17:10:00.005+08:00

When to school for English today was quite fun :D Then 8 out of 14 come for today only. Feel so bad for Ms Toh. After that, went BPP with Kerin :) it have been a long time since i hang out with her :) Then we went to all the hand-phone shop to see phone cause Kerin is getting a new phone and i tell her to get Samsung Ultra Touch or Omina ;p After that we brought ice-cream and go to the car park nearby there eat, talk and joke. We go from one car park to another :) Thanks Kerin for making me happy today :D Just now Guma ask me if i want go KL and i say don't know leh. And she say you don't tell me don't know is YES or NO so i say i like want to go leh :P and say hiya never mind lah next time ^_^ And she say i see how lah :) hehe maybe i going don't know leh. Today my day are much better.

I will not let yesterday sadness cast a shadow on today dreams

Every second count cause there will not be a second chance

If today is my last day in earth

I will recall all the good memories, mend my broken heart

And fall in love in my last day

So do whatever you want to do now

Cause you can never rewind the time back

2009-06-10T23:25:00.004+08:00

Really not in the mood now :( Just cried cause some thing really bad happened and i don't wish to talk about it. I think i going to find job or some thing but is going to start school soon so if i work maybe school start i oso will work but i don't know if i can cope with it anot. Just now clean baby-boy ear and he bite me and now got the scar left on my hand but i think tml will be ok already :) Tml still have to go for the English in the morning :(

The silence in the room is making me want to scream my heart out

Sometimes i love just slips through us without us knowing

I wish i could tell you how i feel

But i guess i will not have the chance of even guts to tell you

If i really have one wish

I will want the power to change everything in my life

My heart is already broken and my tears are flowing out

I WANT TO SHOUT

2009-06-09T22:40:00.003+08:00

Bring baby-boy to the VET just now and he have grow fatter 7.5kg :) The doctor clean his ear and he was making those like funny sound or weird sound :) He got 3 different kinds of medicine and 2 different ear drop :/ i will be the one suffering you know why cause i have to clean his ear, drop the ear drop and feed him medicine :( Just now forcing him to eat his medicine and he bite me when i am trying to clean his ear :(

Walking on the street while the wind blows

It feels like i can hear your voice

Will you know how i feel eventually

You were like a dream to me

Even i don't know what is love

But i know what is fairytale

I am waiting for it to come to an end of all this

And know what is love

I don't even know where am i now

2009-06-08T22:33:00.003+08:00

Oh ya change my blog song :) I still like this song even is quite long ago ;) Then was at home the whole days until at night go BPP find Guma to check the blackberry phone and have dinner at there :) Tml still got English :( Then afternoon going to bring baby-boy to the VET. Finally i got plan in the holidays :) and not staying at home the whole day and rot :(

There have been ups and down in my life and i have been wondering why

But some how i still get over it after some time

When ever i read through the black book it remind me of you

I just cant seem to face the truth

Aren't memorise suppose to fade

How i wish i have never like you before so that i don't have to be in these state now

Now i hope to have a wish that is to completely forget all about you

Now i have to follow my heart

And take one step count one step

2009-06-07T23:23:00.003+08:00

Bring baby-boy to grooming and he now got no hair or little hair :) He look like a bull dog now :) so small and cuter. The head oso very the small after cut his hair ;) I really don't like holidays got nothing to do one :( But i like to wake up late cause i have more sleep hehe :P

Vague and misty is the dream you give me

My sky be it rain, be it wind or rainbow i can control them all

I hate myself to be really useless

Can love be pure forever without sorrow

Can love be simple without hurt

Or love its hurt every time

Cause i want my love to have no worries

I really don't want to think to much

But after the rain has passed it is even harder to forget you

2009-06-07T00:26:00.004+08:00

Wake up very early today cause meeting Jess and Priya :) Then Priya was late and we wanted to eat KFC breakfast but it will only open at 8am so we go eat MAC :) Have fun eating with them cause there will always be alot of laughter going on between us ;) Then Priya spectacles got white white and i ask why white white she say is like a powder and i say don't lie lah is creamer right and her hand or some where also have and Jess say you bath in creamer is it :D Then we all was like laughing non-stop and a bit crazy :)) Then we took the bus. I went home sleep and they went to school for the drama camp :( Evening meet Guma at BPP there eat dinner Japanese food!!! yummy :) Then Jie Jie oso go eat Japanese food but is at other place :( Tml bring baby-boy to grooming ;)

I have been very swayed by my emotions these days

Being together is called dreams

But being apart is called pain

So the dreams that are unfinished is the most painful one

Cause i only have the memories of that one day

If i can stop the time i wish it will stop at the very moment of my life

But the ice-cold nights make me feel so helpless

Starring blankly at the sky looking at the stars

And making a quiet wish that hope to come true

Why cant a heart clears away bad memories

Why must in be in our heart and mind forever

People can forgive what you did to them

But they will never forget

SADNESS DOESN'T GO AWAY....

2009-06-05T22:39:00.003+08:00

Got so many homework lah don't know what the teachers are thinking. Suppose holidays is to let us enjoy ourself and have some fun one but they give us soooo many homework to do like WTH!! Just now did some A-math until i don't want to do and skip alot of Qn. And i not in a good mood oso. I don't want to stay at home. Tml morning meeting Jess lover and Priya at BPP for breakfast after that they will be going to drama camp :( cant chat on the phone with Jess for 2days. Then Rachel oso got camp, Ruoyi is family day and Michelle will oso go out with family or friends one. Then i stay at home with my dog :P But at least i got my baby-boy to keep me accompany ;)

I have been trying very hard to hold my feeling very far away

Somethings is whirling in my mind tell me to make the first move

I want to go back to the start where we first chat

Like very close friend and i think is quite sweet

And i still don't understand the difference between love and like

Maybe love is just another end of a dream

The loneliness of the night easily makes me sad

I don't dare to think too much cause i am not sure about the feeling

But every time we chat it make me feel happy and keep smiling non-stop

Even is for a while only, even i few words or even one second

I want to cry to let out all my sadness

But i want to be strong and not let out any tears

Cause i will feel useless and helpless when crying

Things does not happened the way i wanted it to happened

The darker the night the more scared i am

Feel like drinking tonight and make myself drunk

So i will have no worries just happiness for a while

SADNESS :((

2009-06-05T18:34:00.003+08:00

ASSHOLE!!!! I DON'T KNOW WHY I HAVE THIS KIND OF FATHER!!!!! HE SUCKS LIKE HELL!!!!! I DON'T LIKE HIM. HOW I WISH I DON'T HAVE A FATHER LIKE HIM!!!!!!!!!! F*** HIM LAH!!!

Hey sorry for starting my post like this cause i really cannot take it anymore. Also cannot say all this in front of him. Slack with jie jie at home just now and she make me listen to Jay Chou the Zui Chang De Dian Ying (the longest movie) and Bai Se Feng Che (White Windmill). Then now i fall in love with it already cause i see the MV is very sweet and i like the longest movie best. Accompany her walk to WVPS there. How i wish i can be like Jie Jie go out until very late then come home so i don't need to see until him!!! Even i can get out of the house for a while i also want cause i really don't like to stay at home.

The wind have been blowing towards me quietly

When i feel the wind

I just have the feeling that i am in dreamland

But when i look up on the sky

I feel like dying

I hate it when people don't understand me

I need a new life to change my old memories

Or never wake up from my sleep

I told myself to forget about you

When i want to say goodbye to you

The words just cant come out

And now i don't want to believes in love anymore

Cause i scared it will hurt me again

But if i truly believe my Mr Right is here

I will then believes i love again

I WILL STOP THINKING OF YOU...

I guess

2009-06-04T21:22:00.003+08:00

Went school with Ruoyi today. I was waiting for bus at the bus-stop and she say want to take bus so i wait for her until she board the bus. English i was so bored cause no one was high-ing with me :( After English, went outside staff room find Ruoyi as she was waiting for the Mr Goh that you must wait for him dam long then he will come out. Ruoyi and i think that he got save her number cause the last time that she use my phone call him and he ask you use who phone and she go say my phone. Then me , Ruoyi and Simin went BPP to eat MAC hotcakes. yummy :P I went home 1st cause need to do something. When i am done doing my things, i went back sleep until 1plus or 2 like that wake up cause Rachel called me and we talk about something. Around 4plus i accompany jie jie to bus-stop and wait for 975 to go kor kor camp. Then i go BPP find Ruoyi and we chit chat :) I really like talking to her don't know why. Sian tml got nothing to do so maybe will start my homework but 1st must get foolscap paper if not cannot do.

I have think for a very long time if i have truly forgotten about you

I know that you will cant be my prince

Nobody understands me even you

Now i am left alone at home with your shadows

I know that in my life i will not have him

But i still act like a fool waiting for you

But now i come to my sense to forget you

But sometimes without you i feel very empty

Watching the sky and trying to think hard

I really want to be drenched so i can forget everything

I never thought that can be quite strong now for the time begin

I am waiting for the day to come when i can clears up all memories of you

Maybe it will be better for me...